posey

dear july 18, 2026:

i returned some textbooks and thought to myself, “why do i keep renting these if i don’t even read them?” and, almost immediately, i answered my own question, “cause i haven’t given up on myself. i’ll keep renting cause in the future i believe i will.”

i don’t know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it made sense to me. i just haven’t given up on myself.

love,

dear july 8th, 2026:

“don’t be afraid anymore. not of anyone. not of anything. nothing. ever again. listen to me: not even again.”

— marguerite duras / from, “the north china lover”

i dated this guy a few years ago and when we broke up, he said something along the lines of, “i hope you heal from whatever happened in your past that made you like this.” and you know what’s funny? i don’t even know what made me like this.

i wish i knew what went wrong and when.

love,