You Only Live Once

You were my Edward Cullen... my heart is still broken. I wanna move on but you still run through my mind. I can still feel your hand in my hand like it was yesterday. I can still feel your lips on mine . Will I ever move on

This date never gets easier

I just wish you would reach out please . During this crazy world . These times I miss you .... I’m so fucking sorry man I fucked up wish I could fix everything

How do you let go 100. Will I ever. That’s the question

So my question is was I lied to the whole time. Did you just want to date girls and not tell me? Since it seems like your not talking to any guys ?

As I wake this morning I feel at peace all I can do is close the door and continue on.

As I lay here I just wish you could see what I see. I wish we could of take! These 2 adventures together

Your different in some ways good in some ways not so good. I want the best for people but I see them doing things acting crazy you had it all and your willing to risk that why? To try to fit in ? To try to be like every other person out there. What’s funny you know yourself and you still let your self go at times. Nobody is perfect we all fuck up but somethings are pure stupidity.

I’m sorry. And know nobody will replace you and I’m sorry

I’m so drunk and all I want to do is text you like old times call you and talk laugh at each other get in the car and go to cookout I just miss my best friend still. Idk if this feeling , pain, or thoughts will ever go away you were the best thing that ever happened to me and it still kills me daily your not in my life .

‪God you still hold so much of my heart I hate it but you meant the world to me and you just can’t open your eyes enough to see that ‬

Been one year today and god I still look back and wonder why . But only god knows the true answers .

You can choose to be a decent person or a fucking little prick well you choose what you choose and I gave you the ball in your court not anymore. I’m done trying when I fade into the dark don’t look for me. Don’t worry I’m good I’m strong I don’t need your shoulder to lean on believe me. You go do you boo boo sleep with the whole city be on every app known to man. But you won’t treat me like a piece of trash I won’t allow that. So fuck you for being a selfish little bitch . You could of found 10 mins but you know what one day when I am gone and in the ground don’t wait to talk then cause the silence will eat you alive believe me. It’s funny I can find 10 mins to give your mom when I’m in town but you can’t find 10 second hell you can’t even respond so real mature glad you wasted 7 years.

Officially in Boston.....😎😎