Love, Sam

It's been a while! I'm glad you're back! So I am going on my very first date with a very cute guy! I'm so excited and don't really know what to do on dates????? We're going to lunch and that's it... but I wanna do more, you know. -your local disaster

I talk to myself every night. It sounds weird but, I only do it to get the pain out. There’s always this ‘thing’ going through my head and through my heart. It hurts so bad just thinking about it. That it is actually 'love’. I keep thinking that I might never find the right person or maybe I missed them. A guy I liked once told me that we might meet at the middle. I’m still hooked up about that. Even if he is far away. I still think I have a chance with him. A small one. Then theres this other guy. Don’t get me started on him because I wouldn’t stop just the thought of him makes me want to crave more love… It’ll come. I know it will. Happy Birthday, Sam. I seriously don’t know what to get you. *hugs*. You could just stash this so no one would find out your exact date of birth.

I forgot to add the following message lmao. I couldn't ask him to come on any rides with me. Like just the two of us. Fck.... q.q. well I did get to see him have fun and smile a lot.

i just finished loto and was highkey disappointed with everything except the spierfeld. thoughts?

Drooly here. Well... For one. How he acts, but when he talks to me every seconds counts as a happy memory. Staring at him and not looking away. Watchig thos eyes. He's straight... That's the sad part. I know he isn't looking for anyone at the moment because everyone is too busy with school work. I haven't noticed anything bi-ish or gay-ish from him. If there was one small hint... I'll ask him.