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work started. corporate vibes are crazy as hell, my coworkers dont talk or behave like human beings. but its a JOB im employed and ill be paid good money thats all that matters. right now

tbh tho my cultural upbringing has instilled a crazy amount of shame and embarrassment in me that i cry and beat myself up over the fact that my bf my LIFE PARTNER is paying our rent and bills for us while i was unemployed after being forced to quit my job. he tells me he is happy to do it, and i know id do the same if the roles were reversed cus we're two parts of the same whole. so then why am i so embarrassed and ashamed to be broke and have no money of my own, even temporarily, i feel like a burden. i keep thinking "maybe ill magically get paid a ton of money in the next few days so i wont have to feel like im a burden" and i just feeling disappointed every day that doesn't happen. just stressing myself out for no reason before my new job starts!!

okay no joke tho ive had no income since march just my savings and my bf supporting my expenses, and my new job starts in a few days now but i wont get paid for it for another week or two which is..... stressing me the fuck out!! like i dont want my bf to have to pay for my bus ticket for my commute bro... maybe if im lucky ill get my tax refund soon 😭

i want to start wearing slips, like silk slips under my clothes, i think it's so cute

found nice work pants for 5 dollars and a cute skirt for 5 dollars at the thrift yayyyy

hoepfully i can find work pants for super cheap at the thrift shops...... all my work pants i have are scrub pants and it sucks cus well obviously i wont need them anymore (thankfully). lesson learned.... guys if u need new clothes for work that ur not all that excited about, always get sth that can be worn in multiple different settings..... saves so much money

pet peeve i developed after moving here but why do people completely ignore your existence when they know the person you're with but not you...? unless the person im with introduces me to the other person, they legit act like im not even there, it's so weird. if i see a friend walking with someone i dont know, i say hi to my friend and then introduce myself to the other person so they know who i am... i thought that was the norm ...

i have a month until my new job starts and i wish i could start sooner so i dont have to temp for money, now that i have a good job lined up i reaaaally dont wanna temp anymore, unless its super close to my house 😭

box dye is not my friend.. i got hot roots again.... dyed my hair back to blue black and it will stay this way until it all grows out

i tried an acai bowl for the first time yesterday and now i want it all the time it's so good wtf............

everything ive set my mind to ive done and im so proud of myself... in a foreign country no less.. like i decided i would get into a certain field with zero experience, sent my resume everywhere and trained my ass off in abysmal conditions for two years and worked everywhere, and when i decided i was gonna make an upward move to a corporate job, i accomplished that too!!! im so proud of myself 🩷🩷🩷🤗 i figure shit out!!!!!