little did I know

You ever sit down and realize “nobody would be really surprised if I killed myself. I mean they’d be sad sure, but not surprised”

I think about this almost every day... I'm a little worried about saying too much

Survived yes, but what is my life now??? At what cost did I survive?

One last hit then I’m done I believe I said that at least 3 times early in the morning Suddenly its 11am And I can’t walk straight My vision blurred, my words slurred Deep in this haze I know all too well Everything is okay and everything is fine Nothing matters No one matters I don’t matter I’m not alive, but I’m not dead either Heroin takes you to the forbidden point of in between life and death It’s worse than death Because you’re still existing But you’re existing only as a shadow and your soul cannot free itself here in this state It becomes anxious and nervous and all these feelings are numbed by this thick smoke You soul cannot express itself And you are just a shadow of who you really are Either looking for it or on it Nothing else matters except it This is why it is worse than death - It is best to leave before you slip out of the in between point into the next one

Heroin...its my EX

But too kind equals being used by everyone.

i hate when people say drugs aren't cool. i don't care if they are cool or not, they make me feel like i'm not empty

You can’t break someone who is already broken. But what you can do is add to their pain. So thank you for being that person. You only broke me more than I thought you would, and more than anyone else ever has.