idk what I'm doing

Being an adult is so lonely and I hate it. Life sucks

I just take up space don’t I? There’s no place for me, no one likes to speak to me, no one wants to be around me, I’m just alone.

I struggle with literally everything in my life. Money, language, basic fucking skills and it’s like I’m always falling behind and looked at as an idiot because I wasn’t taught properly or my stupid learning disability. I hate it.

My mother hates me, she never cared at all for me and continues to act like she’s a victim while she’s manipulating me

I literally don’t have anyone anymore. I wanna just disappear

I hate my life so fucking much. I cannot do this shit no more

I wanna cut my body all over and feel the release of the pain I’m feeling.

I feel so alone again. This stupid cycle that keeps happening

If I died no one would even care

I wish I didn’t have my mother in my life

She asked me why I’m so angry when SOMEONE else points it out. Not her even pointing it out. She sits there and tells me that I can tell her anything yet when I always did I was shot down and dismissed and that I should be grateful for my life.

I’m scared of death yet I wish I died because I cannot stand my life anymore

My mother calls me a heartless bitch and it makes me laugh because all she’s ever been to me was abusive but I’m heartless because I no longer care for her?

If I killed myself no one would care