The Lorelei System

Poppy:

- age: 15

- pronouns: she/ her or it/its

- system host

- favorite color: black

- possible BPD/ depression symptom holder

- host of the grief subsystem

- link to subsystem post

- tags: #poppy speaks #poppy reblogs

Nini:

- age: 3-4

- pronouns: she/her

- loves plushies

- trauma holder

- tags: #nini #nini reblob #nini’s art

Phoebe:

- age: 18

- pronouns: she/her

- likes/ wants to go into psychology

- finds our system fascinating, loves to find out more/ think about how our system works

- Phoebe and Bee used to be one alter, but they split into two: a kid and an adult version (they see themselves as sisters)

- tags: #phoebe speaks #phoebe reblogs

Bee:

- Pronouns: she/her

- Age: 12 (but acts/ feels younger, she just calls herself 12)

- likes pastel colors

- attached to memories of parentification/ dealing with our mom during childhood and teen years

- Just wants to get to be a child

- used to be the same alter as Phoebe, but they split into two, so now she gets to just be a child instead of being an age slider who's constantly stuck between wanting to be a child and needing to be a responsible adult)

Tags: #bee speaks, #bee reblogs

Ace:

- age: 18

- pronouns: they/ them (preferred) or he/him

- agender and asexual

- caring and sweet

- likes languages, crochet, video games, and puzzles

- tags: #ace speaks

Nick:

- age: 15

- pronouns: he/him (trans masc)

- likes watching Criminal Minds

- tags: #nick speaks

Ruby:

- age: 20

- pronouns: she/her, but any are fine

- impulsive and fun-loving

- I love cooking, listening to music and getting stuff done

- the “productivity alter”

- mood booster?

- tags: #ruby speaks

Lucy:

- age: 26

- pronouns: she/her

- reckless and careless

- into some messed-up stuff

- probably a persecutor in the self-destructive way

- tags: #lucy speaks

Moss:

- Age: 3-7

- Pronouns: they/bug (non-binary)

- loves nature

- currently obsessed with trees, specifically evergreens, more specifically pine trees

- also loves stim toys; possible autism/ ADHD symptom holder (we’re not formally diagnosed with either, hence the “possible”)

- has green hair, brown eyes, insect wings and antennae (in innerworld obviously)

Tags: #moss talk

Max:

- age: 20 something

- pronouns: he/him

- straight trans guy

- likes birds

- tags: #max speaks

Lisa:

- pronouns: she/her

- adult

- lesbian

- loves writing (mostly original fiction)

- tags: #lisa speaks

Riley:

- pronouns: she/her

- teenager (16-18?)

- self-proclaimed rebel

- I love everything black

- love spooky season and rain

- I enjoy rock music and am currently getting into programming

- tags: #riley speaks

Danny:

- pronouns: he/him

- teen

- into art (+ history) and music (+ history)

- loves looking at art, and making art

- has to relearn so back to being a beginner artist (but that’s okay)

- tags: #danny’s tag #art

Kayla:

- pronouns: she/her

- mid or young teen

- really into fashion

- enjoys dressing up

- attached to memories of being a teenager, hanging out at the mall with friends specifically

- likes being perceived as cute and cool and pretty

- actually likes how our body looks

- tags: #kayla😎

Sophie:

- Pronouns: she/her

- Age: 8 (but acts older)

- likes glitter, pastel colors, animals, coloring, the show "Sofia the First" (name inspiration)

- shy but sweet

- tags: #sophie talks #sophie reblogs

Midnight

- pronouns: none, doesn't want to be referred to, but if needed she/her or they/them

- child

- depression/ trauma holder

- only fronts when triggered badly

- negativity, feels hated

- doesn't want to be perceived, wants to be invisible or disappear, doesn't want to be touched

- afraid

- makes posts that are poems that don't rhyme to express and distract herself

- tags: #midnight

Noelle:

- pronouns: she/her

- age: young adult

- loves Christmas and reading

I hate that one day everything seems to make sense, and the next im like "no that actually doesn't make sense at all". And whenever I try to get help they just misunderstand me and show that they have no idea how to even talk to someone showing signs of mental illness.

Like maybe i was in an episode. Maybe my therapist was right to say I need to be on meds. But her refusal to elaborate as to why made me so paranoid, I couldn't bear ever seeing her again. And now I have no one. And I'm stuck in this situation where maybe I should be on meds but I've run out of people that I would trust with that.

I even considered trying to contact my therapist, telling her that I think i was in some kind of bipolar episode the last time we talked, and apologizing, and seeing if that makes sense to her and if she'd still be willing to help.

But I still don't trust her. Because even if you think a patient is not in their right mind, you should still try to help them instead of just insisting on them taking meds without telling them why you think they need meds (and what kind of meds). She just refused to tell me anything, so I still don't trust her to help me. I just need a psychiatrist and therapist that are willing to be honest with me. Because otherwise all you end up doing is losing me as a patient, and making me feel paranoid and alone.

I know I'm rambling, but that's why I've gone quiet. Just trying to figure things out again, trying to make things make sense again.

(Question:)

Also, I'm scared to even ask but does anyone know if it's possible to believe you are a system as part of a delusion? Because I know that's what's floated around as an insult on here a lot. But I dont know if it's actually true, or just idiots trying to be mean to people. Like, has anyone ever been diagnosed with some kind of condition with psychotic features, after believing they were part of a system?

Not saying that's necessarily what's going on with me, but i realized I've never heard of any delusions like that. Like can you have a genuine delusion that you have a mental illness you don't have?