I started a new freelance subtitling job, I was so excited. I told myself the negative doubts in my head wouldn’t come true. But they half did, my first job had a lot of mistakes and got some harsh feedback. I had never used their software etc. so I’m trying not to beat myself up. They were pretty nice about it and assigned me another job but i declined because I watched a clip of the film and it was just so fast paced I struggled to understand it. I feel not good enough, again. But I’m not going to give up, I’ll watch more French films and get better at understanding. I just hope it’s not too late because if I do badly again they might fire me and then I can’t use them as a reference blah blah.

MAD.