Obese Bitch

It’s kind of dumb, but I want to talk to you all the time. Like, all the time. Which is annoying and needy and very unrealistic, because you have a life outside of our audio messages and sporadic phone calls. But I wanna talk to you. I want you to talk to me. I want your mouth to run a mile a minute and make me laugh until I’m crying. You’re always so good at that. You’re my best friend, my confidant, possibly my world. So we won’t make out in the back of taxis. As long as you hold my hand through crowds and send me another voice memo the next morning, I’ll be okay. Because I wanna talk to you. And I want you to talk to me. And you’re my best friend. And I love you. (In case that wasn’t obvious.)

I'm thinking about ending it again and i don't even care about the consequences, i just want out.

"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."

“Thank you for being the most wonderful, annoying, and inspiring surprise of my life. Thank you for seeing past through all my demons and pain and loving me with the hope and happiness that I couldn’t find within myself. Thank you for all the meals we had together, all the laughter and all the tears. Thank you for all the movies we watched together and how I’ll never get tired of seeing you smile at happily ever after endings and how my passion to know you more will grow all throughout these years. Thank you for making me better than the day I first met you by making me feel that I don’t have to prove myself too much to you because in your arms, I am enough. Thank you for being honest, encouraging, and nurturing, and crossing paths with you has been the greatest privilege of my existence. But most of all, thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for being the love of my life. Thank you for believing in us.”

“I know things are tough right now, but we are stronger than this. We will get through everything thrown our way, and this is no exception. I love you, I really do, and it’s not easy for me to say that, but it’s true. That’s why I’m never going to go anywhere, I’m going to be here, next to your side, even if I can’t be physically there, I’ll always be with you in thought. I’m here to help you and support you, and I will, with all my heart. Goodnight darling.”