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See he kissed me so nicely and fully last night just the way i like to be said goodbye too. But he isn't here.... your daughter waits for you and you are not coming... are you? I work nights and didn't sleep at all yesterday. She wakes me at 2 hour intervals asking for you... where are you? We're not together even though we have this crazy emotional attachment and occasionally sex but why can't I know whats preventing you getting home? What is more important than your daughter? Why do you have to hide it from me? This other life you've formed since we broke up... what the f* is it?

I feel to fat to do online dating... i lost like around 8-10 pounds, probably mostly water weight, since Ive been sick with strep. I really want to keep it off n keep going... its so easy to say that

What does it mean, when a man says he doesn't love his own daughter? Says he doesn't see her enough so he doesn't care about her anymore? What does it mean???!!!!

Haven't posted in a little while... Wouldn't it be nice to find someone who'll always be there?

Always making me second guess things... always making me feel like shit... i was so scared of moving in with you because i thought money and the pressure would tear us apart and it turns out not doing it broke us apart instead because you waited long enough.... i cant go back and right my wrongs. I can't even right my wrongs now... i hate that even though you don't love me i keep running back to you hoping... and trying to please you and failing over time and time again

You always say shit when Im on my period that make me cry and scream and fear the future...

I hate him. I fucking hate him. You got out drinking have a fuckn blast, forget us the nxt day, forget your daughter make fucking excuses and then you text me tonight as Im working about wanting to disappear. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! Im so upset right now. I should not have to remind you she needs you. I should not have to remind you where you should be and what you should be doing. Wake up! Do something with your life.

My life feels weird

I have no idea what Im doing, where Im going Im so fucking lost. I hate the new year. Its just a slap in the face showing me how a fucking failure I am. Im in the exact same place I was last year. Fuck me. Fuck this.

Im not good with change.

The only part of my life that brings me any joy is my daughter

When you feel like you really fucked things up again...

"You're a terrible parent" These words you've said hurt me. I try to do so much for our daughter and I mostly do it alone or with help from my parents. You have plenty of chances, but i feel like i have to force you to spend time with her. Go on, give me more of that sarcasm. More of that hate. No. Just stop it. Stop all your petty bullshit. You are poison. Staying away from you is my only antidote. I keep telling myself she needs you, and at the very least i need your friendship... But i cant keep doing this to myself... I cant...

Pissed is when you live with your parents (who you are very thankful for...because you work nights, expect your daughter (whose old enough) to wake you when she wakes up... But you wake up yourself and realize Grandma has kidnapped her and is not picking up her phone.

Chip