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The beauty of afternoon sex is that you go to bed the same night wrapped in the scent of your lover.

I had two longings and one was fighting the other. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to be always alone.

“Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.

யாதும் ஊரே யாவரும் கேளிர்

You have to accept that some people are not made for deep conversations, or for holding you together when you’re about to fall apart, or for keeping you from unzipping your skin, or for talking you out of suicide, or to love you through the worst moments of your life. Some people are made for shallow exchanges, and ridiculous banter, and nothing more. And that’s okay. That doesn’t make them horrible people because they simply aren’t able to handle a storm like you. It doesn’t make you a bad person because you won’t divulge all the gritty details of your horror show. It makes you smart. You have to accept that there will be people that cannot give you what you need. It doesn’t mean they are not worth keeping in your life. You just have to figure out who these ones are before you’re disappointed. And you have to keep them at arm’s length. You cannot expect everyone in your life to understand, to be nonjudgmental, to get it. But that’s okay, because not everyone was made to impart wisdom, or wax-poetic, or speak on politics and the depravity of society, or discuss how crucial it is that the stigma of mental illness be abolished. There are times when you have to get away from all that heaviness. You have to. And you will need superficial conversation about Kim Kardashian’s arse, or a debate on the colour of The Dress. You will need those ones. So don’t go round cutting people off and dropping your friends. You need people for all your seasons. You need people or you won’t survive this.

When it feels scary to jump, that’s exactly when you jump. Otherwise you end up staying the same place your whole life. And that I can’t do.

When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.

Ignore every instinct to flee. Remember: you are a monster too.

Nobody can save you, but yourself. And you’re worth saving. It’s a war not easily won, but if anything is worth winning, this is it.

I will take my heart and freeze it solid and be the wintry wind that blows it’s unforgiving breathe upon the earth. Only when you realize that my heart is not yours to take, is when the flowers beneath the frosted seasons bloom.

the day you have everything i hope you remember when you had nothing

Falling in love with yourself first doesn’t make you vain or selfish, it makes you indestructible.