Alone And Cold

Being suicidal doesn’t always mean attempting to kill yourself constantly, being suicidal means not caring about your life and waiting for something to take you already

“I wonder what it’s like to wake up and love yourself; to look in the mirror and not want to cry […]; to go in public and not be insecure; to go shopping for clothes and not feel fat. I just wonder…what it’s like to love your life”

“I’m so fucking tired of living this life.”

“I’m actually scared shitless of graduating next week. I never thought I’d make it this far and it’s giving me anxiety just at the thought of graduating”

“I want to break away from my friends and push them away, so they no longer care about me. I’m scared this means I might actually kill myself but it would be such a welcome relief and to be honest, I’m of no benefit to anyone.”

“everyone thinks I’m okay and I’m slowly falling apart all over again….I kinda just wanna kill myself at this point..but I’m not sick enough to be in a hospital or not sick enough for help…”

“I should of died the day I tried to kill myself. Now, I’m just waiting to do it again and pray I’ll be successful doing so.”

“Everyday is more painful than the last and I don’t know where this will end except with my life”

“I always feel like I really deserve to be as miserable as I am. I constantly hurt others and I’m careless too. I just don’t know how to handle myself. Either I’m over-emotional or numb and it’s so exhausting too… I wish it would just go away. It just came like that why can’t it go away?”