Local Psychward Clown

So get this. On Thursday night-Friday morning I started feeling pain from the waist down, which by itself isn't much of a surprise thanks to my yet-to-be-diagnosed-because-France-just-doesn't-believe-its-a-thing fibromyalgia. Naturally, this is the best possible moment for me to twist my ankle. So I do.

And of course this happens when not only I'm pulling an all nighter at work, but also I have my dog with me (yes, he's sort of a Morale Officer where I work so sometimes he's just there) which means I can't just call an Uber and yeet myself out of the situation like I usually do because they don't accept animals.

So it's 4.30AM, I'm wondering how the fuck I'm gonna manage while furiously decimating my cigarette pack (while my colleague who is also there tells me about her sex life in intimate detail - this helps because it's keeping me both distracted and entertained) and after a few hours, a wonderful friend picks us up and takes us home. I take a bath, my heavy pain medication, and go to sleep thinking I'll wake up in a couple of hours feeling better like I usually do.

AND THEN. OUT OF FUCKING NOWHERE. I WAKE UP WITH ONE OF THE NASTIEST COLDS EVER??????????

Like?????? I'm talking super sore throat, nasal congestion that makes my whole head throb, coughing that requires every muscle in my body, skin and muscle pain and hypersensitivity (a light breeze touching my skin = pain)

...... WHY THO???? WHERE DID IT COME FROM AND HOW DID IT DEVELOP IN LIKE A 4 HOUR PERIOD OF TIME

The best part? Good luck telling which kind of pain this is (and how to treat it!!) is it just a viral thing I picked up? Is it long covid? (it kinda feels like covid in terms of how shitty I feel) is it a fibro flare mixed with the average abrup temperature shift cold?

WE JUST DON'T KNOWWWWWW

I'm sorry my LIFELONG disabilities that make it practically impossible to keep a job and function have inconvenienced you. It must be very difficult indeed.

I kept quiet actually. I knew that if I answered I would have said things she's light years away from therapy to understand. But was very VERY close to saying "sorry it's inconvenient to you, it must be indeed frustrating but don't worry about it, cause if my mental and physical decline go any faster and the heatwaves get more frequent, I won't be here for long anyway, so no worries!"