Local Anaesthesia

The first rapture – your proposal. 

In some ways, (and now you can see just how unhealthy that was) - Kaeya was your soil. You’ve grown together; from the first seashells and snow fights all the way to your first kiss – hand in hand and heart in heart, you two would grow. 

And yes, back then it seemed like you two were two stems of the same flower – but really – Kaeya’s mood changes affected you more. Kaeya’s cold shoulder was so much worse than any attempt you had with the silent treatment hoping something like that would reach him. It hurt you so much to be on the receiving end of that – shouldn't he also hurt? 

You were always the first one to apologize; even if it was his fault. Kaeya’s pattern was his lateness. And yours was apologizing for feeling hurt at his ‘seamless’ actions. Kaeya would keep quiet – and that would eat you up – it would make you apologize for not taking his obligations more seriously. He did not force you, ever. But patterns just exist and this happened to be the one that defined your relationship. 

To make it all worse – Kaeya was never late to his obligations. But what is the line that differentiates between an obligation and priority? The first priority perhaps? Were they not the same thing at the end of the day? Shouldn’t your place be there? 

He remembered the exact words, gestures, dates, secret codes of those he had to keep tabs on but he couldn’t remember your important days? No, he did remember them – but they were never worthy of anything beyond the minimum promises that would end up broken anyway. It did seem like Kaeya was always chasing something beyond you – or them or this town – or this sky. 

And just when you had enough – Kaeya seemed not to be late for once. It seemed like his pattern had shattered. You were thinking of breaking up with him, this was your third anniversary after all. And yes, it was true that when Kaeya decided to dedicate himself to purely loving you; it was magical. But this third anniversary date ended up with you leaving the restaurant trying to keep it together. Because he didn’t show up. Of course, he didn’t. 

And then, on the stairs, Kaeya was down on his knees. Not one knee – but two.  It reminded you of how once, as a kid, he accidentally burned your favourite picture book and fell to the ground to express his sorrow for hurting you. And this – this was almost the same.  

Kaeya proposed to you. And he wasn’t late for once. He took your hand in his – said how he had been waiting for this for a long time. And you said yes. Later Lisa told you he purchased that ring just a year into your official relationship. 

It seemed like he wasn’t late in keeping you.  Now you are afraid it was just one more aspect to his eternal pattern. But you have no way of being absolutely sure. Regardless of how you would classify it – it happened, and it was the first rapture. 

The second rapture – your divorce. 

It hurt some deeper part of you. Deeper than the one you imagined.   It hurt that you had spent two years of your precious life begging Kaeya not to be late – begging him to keep his simple promises. And he never did. 

For a man that was always late; seeing him come to the courtroom before you on that day was an insult. No, that is just your anger talking. It was a knife. It hurt. Because that meant it was an obligation to him. Maybe it was one so that he could get rid of you.  As he put down his ring – he hesitated. And you hated him in that moment.   He put it down on the paper and said – in the quietest voice you had ever heard from him: 

“I’ve..been waiting for this for a long time. I knew it was coming. I saw these papers in your drawer 4 months before you filled them in.” 

Your only response was not to hesitate while putting your own ring down. 

The third rapture – tonight.  

Kaeya was a good man. There is not a single speck of doubt in your mind that Kaeya Alberich’s nature wasn’t one of kindness. So, for a long time you were unsure of how to deal with this cascading pain. 

  What do you do if a good man hurts you? What do you do as you move on?   You accept your ex-husband as he is. You try to further rationalize his patterns and you try not to betray your childhood. Hopes and dreams and all that went into it with him. (Yes, Kaeya was a part of it all. He was your soil. You represent the very same to him.)  And with that you get your own pattern of moving on. It had to be on friendly enough terms because cutting him out of your life would be like taking a knife to your own shadow.  And you did move forward. Forward through the seasons with your own patterns. Like, drinking water as soon as you wake up and sitting on a bench to just look at the sky and feel the wind dance around you. 

That was enough. It allowed you to witness a stranger whose eyes shined while feeding a stray cat.   He bent down so slowly and gently to avoid startling it and something about it reminded you of the way the sun kisses the leaves. That was enough for you, but for some reason the cat thought differently because it scratched him. (You would have to thank the cat later.) 

The sun made his pouty face seem so adorable in your eyes. He wasn’t mad at the cat. So you approached and picked it up in your arms – finally allowing him to hear it purr.  

And since that day through the warm spring sun, and even his warmer gaze, Kaveh became your new pattern. And what a wonder that truly was.  

Kaveh’s patterns meant that he was never late. When it comes to you that is.   Sure, he was forgetful but about the smaller things. Like, where he put his special good luck pen, or his cat stickers or his final drafts of a project. He told you that he was commissioned to make a new building that would beat his previous achievement but for that – he needed new inspiration. Over time, he named you his muse and said that the windows would reflect the color of your eyes so that when he stood inside, he would be bathed in your hues. 

So when he got down on one knee after such a declaration – there was no way you could say no. 

But you also couldn’t say no when a certain someone knocked on your door so close to midnight the day before your wedding.  His third rapture. When he stood there with a smile and a plea for you to let him enter. 

“Kaeya. You cannot be here. It is the night before my wedding, what do you think the neighours would say?”  “You can just tell them I got drunk again and ended up at your door once more instead of my own, no? That way the shame is all mine.”  “Kaeya, I-”  “Please, I have been waiting to say this for a long time.”  “Any time those words come out of your mouth nothing good happens. You know that.”  “And you know that I have to talk to you.” 

Call it fate or your own past looking you right in the eyes but you let him come inside. 

“It has been a while since I was last here.”  “Not true, you crashed on my couch just a month ago and Kaveh hugged you thinking that was me in the dark.” 

A chuckle. 

“Now, now, I do not like remembering that. I am just here to confess something.”  “Kaeya, midnight is soon and I have to sleep.”  “Just hear me out. You were right to leave me and find him. But you are leaving for Sumeru soon, isn’t that right?”  “After the wedding, yes.”  “I cannot let you leave in silence. I figured I lost you already; telling you all of this doesn’t make a difference.” 

Does he really have to? Does he have to look at you with that gaze – the gaze of unmoving love despite all. That depth of love doesn’t change – even while apologizing when you were married his eyes remained the same. 

“I said you were right to leave me but, is there really no way you would take my hand and run away right now?”  “You already know – that is why you avoid my gaze after asking such a thing.”  “Yes - I know... But to let you leave without trying would be worse. You might regret me; and what we had and all the times I made you wait. I just wish we could do it over again sometimes.”  “Kaeya, you are my childhood; and you have defined my life in more ways than you will ever know, for such a long time. But none of us are who we want to be; we are just..what we are. Flaws and all. We are our patterns.” 

Midnight strikes. 

“I love you – despite my flaws.”  “I don’t regret you, Kaeya. But I cannot love you in the way you want me to, because I once did, and I cannot love you any longer in the way you’d like me to.” 

You get married the next morning. You move to Sumeru. Kaeya never comes to visit. Your other friends send his regards. 

a/n: I never promised all of these would be happy now did I?

Taglist:

📝 You yelled at him, to his surprise and a one sided argument ensued

📝 He didn’t understand the problem with him not telling you things since he wasn’t allowed to tell you or that his coworker was close to him

📝 What threw you over the edge was the mission called for them to be a couple and prove it

📝 “We had to kiss, which was easy cause it felt like kissing you”

📝 Your jaw was on the floor, kissing a random person was like kissing you???

📝 And to add insult to injury they added that they had to practice, unsure if they’re lying but you didn’t care

📝 You point to the door, his guests staring at you all in awe as you tell him to leave and never come back

📝 Months later he finds himself staring into crowds or the house of daena looking for you wondering how you are

📝 When he sees you talking casually with kaveh he feels something tick at him

📝 Oh, so this is the jealousy you had felt

📝 He doesn’t like it

📝 And his new roommate???? How fucking dare you

📝 So when he finds you at the dimly lit tavern, a few drinks in and kaveh nowhere in sight, he saunters up to you

📝 He knows you’re overly emotional when you’ve had a bit and immediately decides to take you home

📝 He leaves kaveh and takes you begrudgingly to sober you up

📝 He tells you he still loves you when he sees you crying over someone who broke your heart

📝 You wanna kiss him so badly but know that he won’t change

📝 You say fuck it and throw caution into the wind

📝 You both wake up and debate about getting back together but first some hard conversations need to be had

Kaveh

💼 You never thought the architect would break up with you

💼 He claims it was a scheduling issue

💼 But in reality he was ashamed of where he lived and his occupation

💼 He felt he didn’t live up to your expectations considering you’re being a higher rank than his roommate

💼 Hell you were being considered for one of the new sages!!

💼 How could he compare?? You should be with someone better

💼 So he dumped you to help you, at least that’s what he thought

💼 You however were utterly heartbroken

💼 You loved him so much that it made you feel stupid

💼 He brought you out of your head and made you feel like less of an object for the akademiya

💼 Everyone loved your brain and thoughts

💼 But kaveh loved all of you and now he’s no longer part of your life

💼 A year later you’re still a new sage and taking your job very seriously

💼 Seldom you’ll ask alhaitham about kaveh and he gives you very short answers

💼 One day you do ask and he deadpans at you “he’s miserable without you just date him again”

💼 You’re shocked that he said that as he takes his seat as the meeting starts over

💼 You lose your breath when kaveh walks in with some papers and cohorts, explaining the additional building and potential growth for education in the desert

💼 He looked regal

💼 When his eyes caught yours, he faltered

💼 After his proposal was approved you rushed out

💼 You call out his name and he freezes

💼 You turn to a secluded corner, biting your lip at him fumbling his words

💼 You look up at him, breathless and a goofy smile on your face

💼 “Buttercup we can’t,” his voice barely above a whisper

💼 You cup his face with tears falling down and shake your head

💼 “But why? I love you!”

💼 Kaveh holds your hand and kisses the top of hand shaking his own hand

💼 “And I love you too, but I’m holding you back. I mean, look at you! You’re a sage! You approved my proposal. We’re doing what we wanted.”

Kaeya Alberich

❄️ How long has it been since you left Mondstadt?

❄️ Years it seems

❄️ And yet kaeya still goes to the top of the windmill towers to throw dandelion seeds on the first day of spring

❄️ He sighs heavily after throwing all the seeds and comes down

❄️ Secretly he hopes the seeds fly to you and let you know how much he misses you

❄️ Or how much he still loves you

❄️ You couldn’t handle all of his lies

❄️ Diluc had warned you, hell the whole city warned you

❄️ But you were smitten and so you ignored them

❄️ Being a bartender at Angel’s Share how you two met

❄️ And inevitably where you broke up

❄️ He was coming back from a raid and met up with his crew at the bar

❄️ You were happy to see him and wanted to bring him his favorite drink

❄️ You pause when you see Rosaria giving him more attention than usual

❄️ It didn’t help that he was flirting back

❄️ He’s always flirted back with anyone who flirted with him

❄️ And you knew the sister does her best to stay out of peoples business but you also knew she used to harbor feelings for him

❄️ This wasn’t the first time this had happened

❄️ Jean, the traveler, Eury, Blanche, literally anyone who walked and talked to him while drinking he’d flirt with

❄️ It didn’t help being the bartender that you’d have to keep tending to him

❄️ So when he kissed rosaria on the cheek you lost it

❄️ You ended your shift early and went to the upstairs balcony for some air

❄️ You heard the door behind you and rolled your eyes

❄️ “Snowflake it was just a kiss on the cheek-“

❄️ “Then next time it’ll be just a kiss on the lips right?”

❄️ He tries to hug you but you shrug him off and attempts to ask what this is really about

❄️ You sigh and stare into his eyes, “were you ever gonna tell me about khanriea’h?”

❄️ He blinks slowly and watches as you pull the letter from his dad out of your pocket

❄️ “Where did you get that?”

❄️ “Does it matter? You’ve been lying to me about your heritage! Do they even know we’ve been dating for 2 years?”

❄️ You’re met with silence and you scoff. “Diluc was right about you. We’re done.” You throw the letter back at him and walk back down.

❄️ That was almost 2 years ago

❄️ Last he heard you were in Liyue, overhearing a conversation Timeaus had with his lady love

❄️ You have taken on a new lover, some guy who works at a funeral parlor

❄️ As he makes his way down the windmill, he sighs and stares at the photograph from the last windblume festival you attended together

❄️ Kaeya makes his way to headquarters to speak with Jean, surely he can make up a reason why he needs to travel to Liyue right?

Tighnari

🌳 The terms forest rangers, you, and Tighnari always were together

🌳 So it hurts when he travels alone to do his job

🌳 Being a forest ranger wasn’t ideal, but he did enjoy it especially if that meant time with you

🌳 The two of you had shared interests during your scholarly days which became a mutual interest of joining the forest rangers

🌳 Protecting the forests and its inhabitants was what brought you together, but it also drove you two apart

🌳 On a day when Collei’s disease had taken a turn for the worst, you gave her an herbal supplement that Tighnari has not approved of

🌳 Although the inflammation had subsided, your boyfriend was furious with you

🌳 “You could have killed her, you know I’m the only one who knows what’s best for her”

🌳 More and more arguments like that had happened, disagreements about which medicine or procedure to take for certain things

🌳 Until one day Tighnari snapped at you

🌳 “Damn it, can't you listen to me for once in your life? I’m the lead forest ranger for a reason, and there’s a reason why the akademiya denied you over and over again. You’re just selfish and stupid! Let me do it.”

🌳 Your lip trembled before you ran out of your shared treehouse, aware everyone had heard what he said to you

🌳 He was surprised when you weren’t beside him in the morning, usually coming back to bed after an argument to talk it over

🌳 But all he found was a letter saying you were done and had left

🌳 Inwardly he was panicking, but outwardly he had a job to do

🌳 So he kept up his job as months and months went by

🌳 He didn’t touch any of your stuff in hopes that you would return so he could apologize; does he sniff your pillow before he sleeps and starts his day? Yes, yes he does

🌳 It seemed his world halted when Cyno visited him with a piece of cloth from the shirt he made you

🌳 “What’s the meaning of this?”

🌳 Cyno sighs and sits with him. “We found this near an abandoned eremite camp, seems they’ve been captured and held for ransom. Something about some herbal medicine they made that was approved by the akademiya”

🌳 Tighnari goes from being alert and guilty, his tail and ears softening as he is remembering what he last said to you

🌳 “Why come here?”

🌳 Cyno stares at him “really? And I’m the one with the bad jokes… you’re dating?”

🌳 “Not for the last few months. They left after I called them stupid.”

🌳 “Well that was pretty stupid of you.”

🌳 Tighnari pinches his nose in frustration before begging to join him in the search and bargain for you

🌳 It takes days to track you down, visiting the places you made camp and explored guiding them toward the desert

🌳 Tighnari is usually pretty composed but his tail and ears gave him away any time Cyno would ask him a question or let him know how close they were

🌳 The general and forest ranger attacked the remote camp holding you hostage, taking everything they needed and apprehending the mercs

🌳 When Cyno walked out with you, hands still tied behind your back, Tighnari almost cried

🌳 He’d never seen you look so run down and broken, upset that they even dared to hurt you in such a way

🌳 He tries to hug you but you shrug him off, breaking his heart more

🌳 “Sweetheart…” he tries

🌳 Cyno shakes his head at his friend and commands everyone to return to the city

🌳 On the trip back it truly hits Tighnari of what he had done, the things he said, as he sits alone by a river bank

🌳 “I really messed up didnt i?”

🌳 He knows you’re behind him when you sit near him, still hesitant to have him enter your bubble

🌳 “Yeah, you did.”

Thoma

♦️ Helping people and making the world a better place is what Thoma does best!

♦️ And that’s what really drew you into him

♦️ You saw him feeding and taking care of some dogs outside of the city and soon enough you started to join him

♦️ It was a lovely and blossoming relationship, one filled with love and trust

♦️ But his duty came first and it just got in the way

♦️ You were heartbroken, but you knew the kindhearted man meant well and you had hoped things would be okay

♦️ He didn’t speak to you for months, despite his promise to always keep in touch and eventually a couple years passed

♦️ Since he was a busy body you wouldn’t run into him and vice versa

♦️ But boy did he want to see you again

♦️ He knows his lord and lady are in need of his services but he just wanted one week to try and find you, if just for friendship

♦️ He hadn’t told you of his occupation lest you get in trouble or hurt because of him

♦️ So to say he was taken aback when he saw you adorned in traditional wear next to Ayato, would be an understatement

♦️ The commission leader had called in Thoma for an upcoming announcement that he is to be married

♦️ Ayato recounts the story of how you met on the outskirts of the Kamisato Estate and that became your secret meeting spot for the last year and a half

♦️A year and a half? But you and thoma broke up over 2 years ago?? There’s no way… you wanted to see him? And make your relationship public?

♦️ If only he wasn’t working in Ritou at the time!!

♦️You smile so politely at Thoma and genuinely at Ayato with the same glimmer in your eyes that was reserved for him

♦️He does his best to hold back his emotions but you can read him like a book

♦️Besides, you did date the housekeeper for almost a year you should know him

♦️Ayato excused himself to attend to some work but encourages you to talk to Thoma

♦️The silence is awkward and suffocating until he finally has the courage to speak up

♦️“Why him?”

♦️“I came here to talk to you, he saw me at our secret spot, and you now know the rest.”

♦️“But that’s our spot…”

♦️“Thoma…” you move to wipe his tears and he holds you tight, kissing you along your neck

♦️“I still love you”

♦️“I’m engaged”

♦️“Sunshine please,” you wanna tear up from the pleading in his voice

♦️“I’m sorry, he put me first”

♦️Ayato returns and kisses you on the cheek and you giggle like a schoolgirl

♦️Thoma sees himself out and blinks away the tears threatening to fall once more

Kazuha

💨The ocean breeze blows through his hair as he stands on The Crux

💨Beidou is shouting orders and the crew does as she commands

💨His smile fades as he spots a beautiful bird in the sky, notating they’re closer to land

💨He remembers the days the two of you would go bird watching

💨You’d tell him of all the different calls, migration patterns, feather designs all meant and he would rest his head on your lap

💨He loved the sound of your voice in the calm breeze and he misses it every day

💨He wonders if you even remember him, it has been a little more than a year

💨He wasn’t sure how to handle relationship and even worse at when you decided to break it off with him

💨The sea and Inazuma was his home, but your home was in Mondstadt

💨The distance was getting too much for you and Kazuha didn’t wanna admit he was feeling it too

💨He loved to spar with you with his clans sword and talk to you about his family history

💨But that was when you were visiting Liyue and traveled with him once

💨Sea life wasn’t for you, the city of freedom is where you belong

💨His love of writing poetry seemed to disseminate the longer you were away

💨Huh, it seems you were his muse

💨Seeing the bird sparked something, but all he could think about was you

💨He could’ve written about the birds wings but wrote about your blissful personality

💨He wanted to write about the majestic flight, but wrote about how your eyes held the future in them

💨No matter what he did he would always write about you

💨Kazuha sighs and walks away from the boats edge

💨The captain approaches him and hands him an evenlope.

💨“Another letter from Mondstadt”

💨Kazuha takes it and puts it in his pocket, next to the other one

💨“Are you ever gonna read them?”

💨The anemo wielder knows better but gives in and reads what you have to say

💨It’s mostly just how you’re living, still admiring birds and reading up on them

💨You mention how you miss him and hope he’s doing well

💨You let him know that he is always welcome to Mondstadt to see you, but it’s strictly platonic

💨Your intricate words of how intoxicating his love is has him rethinking love in all senses of the word

💨Did he truly take your breath away to the point it drove you away?

💨Was loving you too much or too little for you?

💨He rips up the letters and let them float in the wind, hoping it’ll sink into the abyss

ex!husband kaeya who’ll ask you what he should wear and what looks best on him for his next date in hopes to make you jealous somehow.

ex!husband kaeya who‘s still wearing his wedding ring because he always "forgets" to take it off.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll never stop teasing you, tickling you or sliding his calloused fingers over your lips whenever you say something cheeky to him.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll show up at your home uninvited because he heard you were dating someone else now.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll argue and scream with you because he‘s so fucking jealous but ends up apologizing and hugging it out with you.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll take your chin in between his fingers to kiss your lips after the fight, brushing your tears away and telling you just how much he‘s still in love with you.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll get so damn pussy drunk from being so obsessed with your perfect cunt.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll mark up your whole body, hoping the asshole who thought could date you will see it.

ex!husband kaeya who‘ll push your legs against your stomach, slowly sliding his cock inside your pussy while kissing you, breathing out that‘ll you‘ll never not be his.

ex!husband kaeya who‘s fucking into you without ever thinking of stopping, telling you how this pussy belongs to him after every thrust.

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