this is a loaded question.
because everyone who i’ve ever been interested in hasn’t been into me “Like that”.
because everyone who takes an interest in me always wants me for the absolute wrong reasons.
because i “look too intimidating” to those who I would love to be with.
because once i actually get to talk to someone with the potential of actually being with them, i always fuck up or do something that i know is wrong subconsciously that ends with them either hating or avoiding me.
because i never plan on staying in the same place for more than a short period of time, and i travel light.
because i come off as arrogant sometimes, when i’m really trying to keep from thinking about myself in a negative light, since i’ve been in the deepest of the lowest of the low self-esteem totem poles.
because i tell my deepest secrets and saddest stories to damn near complete strangers and never to people who’ve been around me for long.
because people expect one side of me all the time, but they never know what to do when they realize that i’m a human, not some single-faceted character from a story they’ve created in their minds about me.
because, contrary to what people who know me in real life think, I get sad sometimes too.
because people expect me to be dominating, when i really want to be dominated.
because i don’t know how to ask for what i want.
because i get the most paranoid and combative right before i get comfortable and attached.
because i sometimes get caught up in my ideals and this goal of perfection.
because i’ve never had an official more-than-a-friend before.
I’m single because nobody has asked me not to be single anymore.
