Loa Studies

So something very big happened (an emotional explosion) and since then I have this overwhelming feeling of anxiousness (no really, my heart pounds uncontrollably and my body gets hot). And so, I’m manifesting to shift realities (ima use my Dr as a void) to time travel and get everything I want.

But I feel like I’m doing good at manifesting, I affirm and persist and even when feeling those intense emotions I still redirect and say that I’ve shifted. I still haven’t (and yea time is important to me idc bc these distraught feelings are the absolute worst things I have ever gone through, I would rather feel physical pain than these feelings).

Today, after waking up and realizing I had not shifted, my body immediately reacted. My heart pounded fast and I got hot.

Especially bc the past week I really thought I would shift bc waking up and not being there didn’t matter bc I knew in my heart it would happen soon and I went to bed happy.

I guess this is a cry for help at this point. I hope this doesn’t count as trauma dumping(?).

Today I decided that I would just think I did shift last night and live as if.

(Okay I took a breather and now the intense feelings are down, but it’s just a cycle with it, I feel impending doom and then I calm down thinking it’s okay I can manifest it)

I don’t even know at this point, I just need help 💀

I don't really know how to help you since there is no clear question, but I will say that your approach is very heavily guided by a compulsion to change the 3D and it's what evokes your frustration. Looking around to see if something has changed means you have not fulfilled yourself within by feeling yourself to BE in your DR. You do not change the 3D, you change self. When you're focused on the idea that the outer world is what must change you are creating severance between you and your desire(d reality). You and the conception are one and your compulsion to change what in imagination already is will only hinder and frustrate you even more.

Do not try to shift to your DR. BE in your DR. I will shift to my DR I AM in my DR. Again, you do not change the 3D, you change SELF. You change your I AMness.

You are devoid of faith in self and the law. If you are experiencing fear that simply means you fear your conception of self (because you view yourself as someone who could fail). You don't trust nor see yourself as the only one capable of creating change in the 3D. If you really knew that the entire world and all that lies within it is nothing more than yourself pushed out, you would not feel fear. If you know that the divine law states that a change in self is a change in the outer world then what is there for you to fear?

I'm sure at some point in your life before you discovered the loa you learned to be disciplined in order to achieve a goal. With the law it's no different so do precisely that. You want your dream life? You want your idol boyfriend? The mansion? The face? Apply what you know and be consistent. If it really matters and I mean really really matters to you, you'll rise above your doubts and push through no matter what you've experience with your senses, if it doesn't then you've made your bed. There's no secret trick to persistence that will make it click and push you to finally make a shift in consciousness. If you think there is one, you will be searching in vain.

Don't worry about "how long" it'll take. Your only concern should be to persist until it feels natural to you. Remain faithful to your idea until you acknowledge its reality.

Excerpt from The Power of Awareness Ch. 22 PERSISTENCE:

a few days ago I was going for a ride and I was thinking about how “states” manifest, so I decided to test it. I thought of a boy who told me three or two weeks ago he didn’t want to text me anymore because he was kind of catching feelings (I did not think about this before affirming).

I said “he always texts me and tells me about his day” that was it and then I immediately forgot, my mind was busy thinking about sp and listening to music.

TWO HOURS later, I receive a text and it’s HIM. in those two whole hours I did not think about the assumption I made about him, I forgot. I only thought of it again when receiving the text. It said “go to sleep”, I replied with “hi” and then he proceeded to tell me everything about those no contact weeks and his day.

I’ve been manifesting my real sp for a while now (almost two months for reference), and I understand that this other person came instantly probably because I did NOT care about him. (I just recently discovered states)

I am in the state of “I am her girlfriend” or “we are going to be together anyway, I don’t have doubt” and having good inner conversations but somehow feel like i’m thinking too much about this or that this are two entirely different states. and I wanna know if this causes some sort of resistance. also i’m dreaming about her every. single. night. I’m aware this is not a sc problem, more of a state problem, but I don’t really know anymore.

any advice for this situation?

thank you in advance, all love

First of all resistance isn't real.

You either are her girlfriend or you are not. Those are the two states for you to pick from. "we will be together anyway" implies that you are currently not together, meaning that you are not conscious of being at this very moment. That is the state you would be in because you would be thinking of being her girlfriend and not thinking as her girlfriend.

Yeah, but I had to be honest with myself and come to terms with the fact that I was convincing myself that I did "know" when truth is I was just hoping and not actually becoming conscious of it. You can't fail with the law so if you did "fail" that's because you didn't actually change self. There's no other reason for failure.

If I had been in this position committing the same mistake, it would've looked like me reminding myself that that's not gonna happen so it's okay and just do that whenever it came to mind. Since I never changed self, this was merely an act of thinking of it.

you need faith. faith is essential.

always go to bed feeling fulfilled. always.

your imagination is always going to be better than your outer world. embody that.

when something unwanted happens in your outer reality, laugh at it.

This is an excerpt from 'I am That', this book also I have uploaded to my drive, although with no annotations since I have yet to finish it.

"I am now 74 years old. And yet I feel that I am an infant. I feel clearly that in spite of all the changes I am a child. My Guru told me: that child, which is you even now, is your real self. Go back to that state of pure being, where the 'I am' is still in its purity before it got contaminated with 'this I am' or 'that I am'. Your burden is of false self-identifications — abandon them all. My Guru told me — 'Trust me. I tell you; you are divine. Take it as the absolute truth. Your joy is divine, your suffering is divine too. All comes from God. Remember it always. You are God, your will alone is done'. I did believe him and soon realised how wonderfully true and accurate were his words. I did not condition my mind by thinking: 'I am God, I am wonderful, I am beyond'. I simply followed his instruction which was to focus the mind on pure being 'I am', and stay in it. I used to sit for hours together, with nothing but the 'I am' in my mind and soon peace and joy and a deep all-embracing love became my normal state. In it all disappeared — myself, my Guru, the life I lived, the world around me. Only peace remained and unfathomable silence."

"You yourself are God, the Supreme Reality. To begin with, trust me, trust the Teacher. It enables you to make the first step — and then your trust is justified by your own experience. In every walk of life initial trust is essential; without it little can be done. Every undertaking is an act of faith. Even your daily bread you eat on trust! By remembering what I told you you will achieve everything. I am telling you again: You are the all-pervading, all transcending reality. Behave accordingly: think, feel and act in harmony with the whole and the actual experience of what I say will dawn upon you in no time. No effort is needed. Have faith and act on it. Please see that I want nothing from you. It is in your own interest that l speak, because above all you love yourself, you want yourself secure and happy. Don't be ashamed of it, don't deny it. It is natural and good to love oneself. Only you should know what exactly do you love. It is not the body that you love, it is Life —perceiving, feeling, thinking, doing, loving, striving, creating. It is that Life you love, which is you, which is all.

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There is already one up, and this too should be useful :)

First and foremost get to a place where the person you're identified with right now doesn't bother you anymore. It's a kind of surrendering but to me, truthfully and honestly, it felt more like a giving up. Even if it makes you miserable, accept it until you no more fear it or care if you stay the same.

If anybody here started from law of attraction back in 2020, you may know they had a step to "let go", everybody revolted because if we want it of course we aren't gonna be able to let it go. They were right, but not in the way they thought they were. Both letting go or trying to convince our ego of something does nothing. It feels very unnatural and:

• delusional to claim you have something you do not see, depending on everyone's personality;

• rage inducing to be told to let go when the ego considers this desire a NEED, it has to have it and nothing will stop it.

Last year when I've read Lester's book for the first time, it made my heart drop each time he said "Let go of all desires" - it made me feel hopeless instead of empowered. I was like "you can't be serious, I CAN'T, you're supposed to help me not sink me". Nobody trusts in the "let go", especially now after law of assumption when you know you are the source of all that is. Let go and do what? Who's gonna give it to me if it's all my doing? It really made me feel nauseous when he told me to stop desiring because I really couldn't go on without having what I needed. It felt like he was telling me to just endure life. We all got into loa because we were at low bottom and wished ourselves better, what do you mean wish nothing? I half wanted to smack him.

After law of attraction, it was law of assumption - you lose patience and gain resentment when it doesn't show up when you want it to, sometimes (a lot) not at all. You aren't sure of anything, you're just supposed to blindly trust. Don't ask how, don't ask when, just fulfill yourself. Well I want it now and I want it like this, if it's all me why isn't it happening now and like this???? It was contradicting and nothing exponentially significant happened no matter how much I mentally acted as that person, since I still knew myself to be me (past ego).

Loa was wrong about letting go because you can't let go of desires or fears if you don't know who you really are. If you think you are this ego you can't help being anxious. You can't help wanting to get. Real Surrendering can only be of the ego. By letting go of who you think you are and seeing you were never it in the first place, that it is because YOU are, you naturally drop all desires and fears because they weren't yours. And if you want to be a person, now can just pick another person who has none. You aren't anxious because you have no reason to, you were never what you thought to be your self so nothing can stop you from changing anymore. Doubts don't exist because they don't have "time" to. Creation is instantaneous with the creator. There's no rage or resentment since emotions are of the ego, your real self has an equal attitude toward everything.

See that you are first, with no labels; not even that of male/female. SEE THAT FOR EVERYTHING ELSE TO BE YOU NEED TO BE FIRST. See how there would be no thing if there wasn't someone for it to happen to! There is no world and no person without the one who experiences it. You are that one and not the thing you are conscious of.

What does it matter what others want? You create the others in your imagination.

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Feeling defeat is actually good, it prompts you to let go :D

You don't need to reach for what it's already within you. Give up the idea that you have not found it and just let it come into the focus of direct perception, here and now, by letting go of all that is of the mind.

A jeweler who wants to refashion an ornament, first melts it town to shapeless gold. Similarly, one must return to one's original state before a new name and form can emerge.

Rather than disregard it, why just not think of it as perfect? If you know who you are, and that the world is because you are, and only exists as a manifestation of you, why just not fully surrender to the thought of it being perfect? Allow yourself to think like this reagardless of what ego sees. How should I say... just feel in your heart that you look/live as Lara now and the world is right and perfect, don’t try to change or control what Vanessa sees, and stay with the thought of your real being more and more until you feel indifferent, but peaceful and full of love.