Hello! I recently had a post blow up a bit so I think it’s about time for a proper intro post.
First of all this blog is 18+ dni if ur a minor.
My name is Hazel (or lolbits, whatever you prefer. Lolbits is an online name so I do prefer Hazel if we have spoken directly) I use she/her pronouns but often get called it/its and don’t mind that or anything else as long as it’s not he/him. I am transfem, neurodivergent, physically disabled, and plural. (only host will be using this so dw about it)
This is my main and currently only blog, I post a lot about kink, fangirling about my partner (goes by bug online, uses any pronouns), disability stuff, queer stuff, and my hyper fixations (dnd, mtg, and video games). I very much have autism so if I take something too literally then please just let me know in DMs. (I am also very new to tumblr, if I act like I know what I’m doing or use tumblr lingo that’s because I was with my partner and he helped me edit it)
It’s worth noting that I will block any followers who have bios who say they are minors, anyone who just makes me uncomfortable (cishet men twice my age seeing me thirsting or me in a maid outfit etc. is fucking weird), and anyone who has any posts shitting on cis people for being cis, trans men, genderfluid people. Really any group you don’t have a choice on joining (and most that you do choose to join). It’s also worth noting that I was raised by a very alt right father so I am still learning things, please give me some grace to make mistakes and learn from them.
Also, I have an owner (dom) (separate from partner), @veryterrabelle is their horny blog, she sometimes enjoys forcing me to post pictures here and may do other stuff related to this in the future. Because this has been a concern in the past I want to affirm that the entire thing is consensual, she is very sweet and has been great when I needed to safe-word. If I post something it’s because I WANT to post it. I will brat and complain but if I didn’t want to post it I wouldn’t. We use the streetlight safe word method and it has worked very well for us.
Feel free to dm with questions about anything, or if you aren’t a cis man, for flirting/being horny. (I am bi but just don’t really feel like doing flirting with cis men online) however if I say red please stop or I will block you. I will also not send nudes, gender dysphoria is a bitch and I just don’t feel comfortable with it, but feel free to ask me to send me your own. I am also purely submissive, if I try to dom that’s me being bratty. Please do not dm me trying to get me to dominate you I’m not interested.
Kinks: praise, degradation, kidnapping, pet play, rope bunny, drugging, cnc, etc.
I think that’s about everything so here’s the selfie that was in my old pinned post as thanks for reading all that, sorry it was long I’m not the best writer and this was my first time.
ALSO ALSO ALSO, I have now been called a fucking psyop against trans women and that’s actually the funniest fucking thing I’ve ever seen so please come laugh (but don’t interact don’t give them more attention)
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toy keeps crying about wanting to leave even after you’ve gotten them nice and settled in your basement? bring them out to get some fresh air and fuck them in the great outdoors where anyone could see them until they’re begging to go back inside!
toy keeps crying about wanting to leave even after you’ve gotten them nice and settled in your basement? bring them out to get some fresh air and fuck them in the great outdoors where anyone could see them until they’re begging to go back inside!
Conditioning girls to relax at my touch is so amazing. Making my hands the force that makes you drop your shoulders and close your eyes with a small hum and an exhale of breath. Soon enough you never really want it to end. Always pressing close, always needing for me to handle you. To make you feel so good at the gentle melting of all that daily tension. I hardly even need to prompt anything. You'll just come to realize close is easiest place to be reached and when there is only one chair the floor will be fine for you. You won't need modesty when you just need my hands on you
Listen, I willingly (don't ask) poured one drop of hot glue in the palm of my hand and in my forearm (DON'T ASK)
Both lost the skin and yeah, it hurt like heck. Disinfect the area and leave it to heal (If the burn ain't too big). I'm sorry to say that, depending on the area, it will leave a mark. My hand spot is nearly invisible because it was in palm, which has thicker skin. My forearm wasn't so lucky, and to this day the round scar is visible. But hey, i get to decide what to tell about how i got that scar :3
"This one? Oh, I once tried to intimidate a guy twice my size by burning a fag on my forearm without even blinking. It worked, and now I have this as proof of my victory" XD
Perfect :3 you must have removed the glue quickly. That must have helped.
And I said the hand has thicker skin, silly >:3 you ain't gonna get a scar just like that. If it was on the forearm, like myself, you'd get one of these:
Fair on the hand bit, but yesterday I thought something was ai bc fingers had wrinkles because mine don’t fucking do that and it’s apparently because they are so soft. Despite me doing martial arts for a fuckign decade. Thanks eds and estrogen xD
Edit: yes I did also instantly remove it, then poked the actual gun thing with my arm but that wasn’t as bad.
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if you are in possession of an angel please remember to pin it by its wings like a butterfly and torment it until it is leaking all over itself and rejecting divinity in your name. it’s for its best interest.
i'll push you down and then put big needles through your already blackening wings. it will hurt, but you don't mind that, do you? i'll have you right where you belong: below me. you can't even decide which side you're on — a fallen angel. once holy, now with horns.
once i made sure you're pinned down securely i'll have so much fun with you. caressing your wings at first, enjoying the softness of your feathers. even that will make you squirm. but your noises get so much cuter and more intense once i start playing with your halo and horns. as i trace the symbol of your former holieness, you body fills with radiance; it's not your mother's however. you do not belong to her anymore. you belong to me. no matter how much you try to fight the fought you can help but accept me as your new superior. the more i blaspheme by touching something so sacret, the more my demonic energy fills your body, bringing us so close together.
and once you've accepted your new fate, i go on to play with your horns. they are so very sensitive and i feel your body twitch under me from pleasure. you of course can't move, but your futile attemps to do so are just so adorable, making you seem even more pathetic.
this will go on for hours. until i am bored. which will be never, because you are way too much fun to play with. to hear you beg for me to release you at first, then begging me to stop touching you, untill you finally give in to the pleasure and beg to cum. you're so pathetic. you used to hunt me. and now you're begging me to use you more.
once im finally done with you, i'll let you hang there. covered in your own juices and your brain too mush to think you'll make a very pretty piece of decoration~
Listen, I willingly (don't ask) poured one drop of hot glue in the palm of my hand and in my forearm (DON'T ASK)
Both lost the skin and yeah, it hurt like heck. Disinfect the area and leave it to heal (If the burn ain't too big). I'm sorry to say that, depending on the area, it will leave a mark. My hand spot is nearly invisible because it was in palm, which has thicker skin. My forearm wasn't so lucky, and to this day the round scar is visible. But hey, i get to decide what to tell about how i got that scar :3
"This one? Oh, I once tried to intimidate a guy twice my size by burning a fag on my forearm without even blinking. It worked, and now I have this as proof of my victory" XD
if you are in possession of an angel please remember to pin it by its wings like a butterfly and torment it until it is leaking all over itself and rejecting divinity in your name. it’s for its best interest.
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2008, and I'm getting ready for my government job fresh out of college. There's a suddenly bright light as a tear in space appears, and a bright haired female version of myself steps through it.
"Foone! I have an important message, from your future self!"
"oh wow, is it that I'm a girl and need to transition immediately?"
"no, you'll figure that out yourself. This is more important"
She steps closer and takes my face into her hands.
"never read homestuck for a boy you have a crush on. Farewell!"
There's another flash and a momentary smell of ozone, and I'm alone in my apartment again, more confused than ever.
The fun part about my experience with trauma is that I only recognized the stuff in my early childhood as traumatic… and was unaware I was in an unhealthy environment… even after my father left the story.
It’s like… I was too busy bleeding from a gunshot… to notice I was being stabbed by needles for a decade.
The gunshot might have given me a fear of shouting and a distrust of physical contact from most men. Probably is the origin of our system.
But the needle stabs permeate every aspect of who I am. How we treat others and ourselves. Our fear of confrontation, our inability to really feel anger and sadness, our inability to want things for ourselves, our need to be useful, and a myriad of bad coping mechanisms we picked up from our mom.
A very apt way to put a lot of trauma that is associated with parents of trans women.
The father destroys in large sweeps, the mother subtly disintegrates what’s left. All unintentionally too, so when confronted with the reality of their actions they will usually claim no responsibility for such damages, as their brains cannot comprehend that they could’ve done something so damaging…
I’m rather familiar… though in subtly different ways in my own experiences with parents.
My mom sees the harm my father did. But she will never recognize her own part to play in the patterns of my mind. Even though the harm she did… is far more pervasive and subtle.
stella, you do realize that this is the reason i am more concerned right? the way you fight off attempts to help you or try to make yourself as little as possible, afraid to take up space
if people are giving you more space than you need they are not wasting their energy. they are expressing love and care and helping you live a happier live. in no world is that a waste
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