BigDaddyLexx💦

Why do I try? Honestly? Huh? Was I dumb to waste my tears? Was I dumb to get hurt and be stuck on you? Why is your name printed into my heart? Why can't I move on? Why tf do I care so much about you? Why are you the first and last thing I think of when I wake up to the time I sleep? Why do I try my ALL but still isn't enough for you? How come, I still feel worthless and not enough but your supposed to make me feel like a Queen! Why do I even consider you a 3rd chance? Why do I try to make time? Efforts! Into you? Why is another nigga trying to fight for me but your doing nothing? Is it because you know im wrap around your finger? It's like no matter what or how you do things.. I'll always come back to you and forgive you! Because, I LOVE YOU! ITS FUCKING BECAUSE MY HEART STILL BELONGS TO YOU! ITS STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU! That's the fucked up part.. You don't realize that you got me. You don't know that I would do ANYTHING & EVERYTHING at ANYWHERE & ANYTIME, just for you! I'll always put you before myself. That's wrong! How can a human put their life away and make sure, that person! That person is good and is okay, while I'm dying inside! How come you didn't see how I gave you my world. Was it enough? Was I enough? I know, I wasn't enough. You had a girl who would ride for you! Shoot for ya! Damn! Name it! I got you! Crazy, how a nigga who would want it but don't actually cherish it. So, why is a nigga fighting for me after I said "I'm not trying" and he knows your name is written on my heart? You say all these things.. Don't stay true to your words. You say things that are so fucking good to hear but you don't do it. It's completely bullshit! I gave you everything i could give a nigga! All I got back was feelings hurt and tears running down my face.. You might say you want me. What are you doing to get me? Do you see the difference into those things? You gave up so easily! Wasn't I worth it? No.. I wasn't. How come a nigga who wants me! Actually puts through the bullshit just to have me. You gave up once I said it. You gave up because the nigga who wanted me is trying to get me. Why did you give up if you "REALLY " wanted me? It's sad that I keep thinking if he wanted me he wouldn't have gave up and not let the nigga get a chance. Again, your not me. I would have never let you go. Through whatever. I came to a point, where I start to see you not care or you really don't want me. I tired running to you once.. All I got was cussing and yelling.. that's not okay. Kinda hurts knowing, I'm running to you and you really never be there for me but once I try.. It's like why did I run to you. I love you. I'll always will. But You don't want me. You just lost me. I'm sorry. Your showing me no reason to give or actions towards why should I give you another chance.