Sexuality included.

So ion know why I put naked women on here.

Movies I watched yesterday. I rated movies on my fun account here and there for a while before I had a huge mental breakdown but I am STILL on temporary hiatus until further notice due to mental health issues. Not technical issues. Not locked out. Fear not. I am unable to use a bunch of social media due to trauma for years now. It doesnt have to make sense to you or understand me to understand how bad i feel and why I choose not to use social media in ways that seem weird.

Spoilers I guess

Book Thief: Way too slow. Boring. Kind and important concept. Sad ending. Insane coincidence that everyone died but the two protagonists and she survived due to spending time writing.

Rate it a 5 out of 10

American History X: i think the actor is fine with hair, extra points. Everyone who knows me knows my type in men is a racist with a mustache. Thats not a secret at all. Not a real racist nor would I be with a racist 💀 Anyways. Story, plot cool. I like the actors because I like the other movies 1 of them are in, Butterfly Effect. Plot was typical and sad. A circle of hate. Frustrating ending I did not predict that because I was too focused on the main character and didnt care about the kid. The actors do a good job of making you hate them as a person their acting is so good. I will note when he is a skin head the acting reflects the grotesque nature of racism, when he has hair he perfectly reflects change and growth. You want to trust the character and trust he is changed. But you cant tell if the change will stick due to the ending and his generational trauma and generational racism.

Rate it like a 7.5 out of 10. Awful ambiguous ending turned me off.

Michael: Seen movies depicting him being abused before. Did not finish the movie know what happens. Pepsi commercial fire, vitiligo, abusive useless dad, movie annoyed me.

-600 out of 10. Filming a movie to portray a man who harmed children in a good light too every point away. Didnt even depict the family abuse 100% either.

A Time To Kill: Didnt finish, movie was boring, slow and awful. But that is not me saying I think realistic depictions of the U.S. system is boring or slow. Its sad, and im not saying that. Its just a boring movie. Not diminishing any of the themes at all. It just was not for me. The story WAS an autobiographical depiction and I do not want anyone to think me rating a film adaptation is how i feel about the gruesome reality of letting victims of sexual assault not receive justice especially if they are black.

I do not think it is fair to rate but since I have rated other historical movies I will. But I didnt even finish it so I dont think it is fair to rate cuz what if i quit watching before it got good ¿ ill rate a day i finish it which will prob be neva eva

The best movie I watched yesterday was American History X but since the ending is ambiguous it made me angry. I also hate black and white even though it works well to show past vs present. I would not necessarily recommend because if you have a Low IQ, the movie plot would go over your head anyway due to the ambiguous ending

My edit:

Katherine Jackson must have been very devoted to her religion as a jehovah witness and really cared about societal misogynistic views to stay with a man who beat her kids, cheated multiple times n looked like this 💀

Trauma bonding is a heck of an addiction! 💀

Edit

I can rate the movie as I decided to finish.

Awful

Rate less than negative 600 because the movie was mostly pieces of abuse, music video recreation and the Pepsi incident.

The ending has no conclusion, resolution or anything and I know why

Although we have the ADA, the continued fight for our rights are ongoing

Also, the 1990 Capitol Crawl was brutal when it happened and shouldn't have had to happen

I don't care nor ask anyone what people's disabilities are, I just would want global accessibility, respect and kindness for all. Obviously ontop of financial rights and things as well.

I don't care if you "Live off the government." That's not a real concept at all. 😹

Disabilities are part of the obvious reason I 100% support Diversity, Equity and Inclusion. It's common sense but people turn it into nonsense to support a hateful cruel agenda. The things I support for Inclusion for all are things that help monsters who do not believe in people having rights can work like Greg Abbott and Mitch McConnell. 🤓

People often think disabilities means having Cerebral palsy, being blind, being in a wheelchair or not having limbs. Not all disabilities are visible to the eye and some people also make effort to keep whatever they are struggling with day to day private

All in all, if you aren't being nice or having good intentions, I think you should just mind your business like you do when people are discriminated against or do not have the elevators or wheelchair ramps to get into their home easily.

Equity, equality and Inclusion forever 🤓

I know someone with a real skeleton display, it terrifies me, grosses me out and makes me sad. I dont want near it, scares me. 🤓 This is not me disrespecting who has it, I know a ton of people so you can't accurately guess who, I dont know how they received it, not my business. None of the emotions I listed are happening due to negative assumptions about who has it.

Tiktok coincidentally showed me kids at a college who buried most likely stolen skeletal remains used as a scientific display sold to colleges and places for unethical education.

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The story of how India came to be the largest producer and exporter of prepared anatomical human skeletal material, begins during British colonial rule and is set in the history of medicine and anatomy itself.

During the growth of medical education in 18th and 19th century Europe and North America, there began to be a greater need for bodies to be used for anatomical training and dissection1,7, and thus the widespread practice of grave robbing of the impoverished and racially disenfranchised

Sources:

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10894195/

https://www.npr.org/2007/11/29/16678816/into-the-heart-of-indias-underground-bone-trade

This all reminded me of:

Henrietta Lacks - Black woman whose cervical cells were harvested without her knowledge or consent in 1951 at Johns Hopkins Hospital. Known as HeLa cells, they became the first immortalized human cell line.

Her exploitation is a profound bioethical tragedy at the intersection of racism, informed consent, and medical commercialization. while her descendants lived in poverty and lacked adequate health insurance.

Henrietta was treated at a time when hospitals were racially segregated. Her story remains a primary example of how marginalized Black bodies were historically used by the medical establishment for progress without receiving recognition, or compensation

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/nation/family-of-henrietta-lacks-whose-cells-were-taken-for-medical-advancement-settles-with-company-that-profited

Forced Sterilizations and eugenics against black women - From the 1920s to the 1970s, tens of thousands of poor, Black, and marginalized women were sterilized without their knowledge or informed consent under state-sanctioned programs.

https://www.pbs.org/independentlens/blog/unwanted-sterilization-and-eugenics-programs-in-the-united-states/

James Marion Sims - Between 1845 and 1849, James performed experimental surgery on enslaved black women and girls to treat vaginal problems.

A common racist belief from the time, that often persists to this day, is that black people do not feel as much pain as white people. As a result of this, James did not anesthetize the women he operated on while developing his fistula repair technique

https://verdict.justia.com/2016/03/30/the-hidden-atrocities-behind-medical-progress

Tuskegee Syphilis Study - Was a study conducted between 1932 and 1972 by the United States Public Health Service (PHS) and the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) on a group of nearly 400 African American men with syphilis as well as a control group without.

The men were not informed of the nature of the study, proper treatment was withheld, and more than 100 died as a result.

https://www.mcgill.ca/oss/article/history/40-years-human-experimentation-america-tuskegee-study

Adriana Smith- A pregnant woman in Georgia was declared brain-dead after a medical emergency and has been kept on life support for three months by doctors to allow enough time for the baby to be born and comply with Georgia's strict anti-abortion law.

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/nation/brain-dead-woman-must-carry-fetus-to-birth-because-of-georgias-abortion-ban-hospital-tells-family

Past and present racist medical exploitation, malpractice and medical neglect is very real.

I implore you all to educate yourself on medical history, biases and prejudiced stereotypes.

Ignorance perpetuates the historical and ongoing failure to properly care for Black and brown people

I researched and posted summaries of the tragic histories above, if YOU search it yourself you'll find much more gruesome, devastating and sad information on each historical events i posted.

I did not include current statistics, or misogyny in hospitals. These support everything i said for present time, and adds intersectionality of medical neglect based on discrimination.

I recognize the ethnic genocide against the Tutsi, and I acknowledge the massacre of the Hutu and the Twa people during that horrific time.

There are many different ethnic cleansing taking place in the world right now, without much acknowledgement or change.

Such as in Sudan.

In Darfur, the Rapid Support Forces (RSF) have been targeting the Masalit and other non-Arab groups.

Fatality estimates vary widely: ACLED recorded 29,582 deaths by the end of October 2024, while BBC and The New York Times (Oct 2025) report that the true toll could exceed 150,000 people, including an estimated 522,000 children who have died from malnutrition.

As a closing I say Free Congo.

This cycle of displacement and violence is also devastating the Democratic Republic of the Congo, which sits just beside Rwanda

Various groups have fled to the Congo (DRC) over the past decades, primarily including approximately 2 million Rwandan Hutus following the 1994 genocide.

This isnt just history, it's current events.

🙁

https://reliefweb.int/report/sudan/sudan-crisis-situation-analysis-period-230326-290326

Lately

steak

tacos

spaghetti, cheese stuffed meatballs

nachos

spaghetti

pico de gallo

Salisbury steak w potatoes

banana pancakes repost

Salisbury steak w scallions edition

POV, I dont have friends to go out with, im broke, extremely sad and not okay. So I have been using gaming, filming, filming videos as a coping mechanism since about November or so i guess. I have online niches. Yes.

I have had OBS before, but was too lazy to figure it out. I figured it out.

im not a stereotypical reddit mod or discord mod, or anything crazy, im suffering from mental illness and people hurting me. so I shut myself out. not much social media, nothing. too fatigued to do much. I usually dont like gaming but this forces me to like it because im engaging with people. Its tiring but what other coping mechanisms r there in this economy ¿ 🤔

Games:

Left 4 Dead

Papa's Taco Mia

Goku's Legacy 2

In order now I dont remember after dragon ball z, so Ninja Five 0, Dr. Robotniks Mean Bean Machine, The Last Stand 2, Papa's Burgeria.

I think sometimes gaming, talking to a camera THEN uploading is embarrassing sometimes, but I've been filming myself talk to myself since I was under 10, and I do not imagine I get attention or an audience. Any social media platform I use I just assume no one sees me. its not true of course. Big Brother is always watching us.

Now it is 3:36 am as I type this part. But rest is a copy and paste.

I made the tiktok viral sensation onion boil. Cuz I love onions.

I put, white pepper, black pepper, onion powder, garlic powder, cajin seasoning, salt and butter.

I used BOXED mashed potatoes, JAR turkey gravy, mozzarella, with milk and butter. it looks gross cuz I like the fat get cold and separate but its like a 8 out of 10.

I rather have chicken tenders and fries with ranch, my usg. other than tacos but I wanted to try.

my mouth kinda on fire, my asthma and allergies are acting up so I cant really breathe or taste.

today wasnt a sad day because I spent it fatigued and asleep mostly. I physically cant stay awake. probably need a new blood test but I dont want to pay for one right now. health insurance, costly care, answers, in this economy?

also, i am limited to social media usage for years but more so recently in these past months due to PTSD, OCD and sadness. still. so if you found me here cool.

Me spreading awareness about James Charles and Shane Dawson, then I find out in real time 2 hours delayed about the Venezuelan capital. 👿👿👿👿

I was up till 7 am streaming Left 4 Dead on servers and I saw a political friend of mine share it on Facebook, and I googled it to see if it was true and not fake news before I spoke about it.

I lack emotion in my voice, because its just horrible things happening over and over plus I spent the stream talking about how withdrawn I am from everyone on social media, in real life and how sad I am. plus I was hungry, it was 3 am, so I didnt exactly have the energy to act out. im obviously condemning this administration with 99% of the things that they do.

I understand and aware the president of Venezuela was corrupt, but they traded 1 authoritarian dictatorship for another one which is a harsh assumption of a government that we have because it could be worse. but I think being found guilty of what he did to E Jean Carol, and the partnership he had with Jeffrey is more than enough to consider someone is above the law. especially after January 6th.

That is taxpayer money going towards irreversible harm for all.

I am 27, I am gen z, born in October of 1998.

I almost have a bachelor's degree in Education specializing in English and Social Studies, middle childhood.

I want a political science degree, and a law degree.

I have a dog named Puppy, that I adopted July 23rd, 2015.

I'm gay and asexual.😎 Since age 11.

My first gay relationship was a long distance relationship that started May 30th, 2012.

I am dealing with mental health struggles.

I am an atheist. I have identified as atheist since I was 11.

I have been diagnosed with alpha gal syndrome. 🙁 I cant have beef, pork, lamb or dairy.

I have naturally wavy hair.

I have bad eye sight, asthma, various food allergies, metal allergies, latex allergy and mental health disorders. 💀💀💀💀💀💀

I love to cook.

I have been single since 2021.

I upload political, government, gaming, personal, health and daily event videos. 🥰💀

I turn 28 in 2026. 😱😱😱😱😱

My favorite two all time favorite artists and celebrities are Kelly Clarkson, and Hayley Williams.

I also love Megan Thee Stallion, SZA, Sabrina Carpenter, Olivia Rodrigo and more.

I love oldies pop.

I love rock, pop, some country and metal. But mostly pop.

I am extremely fatigued all of the time due to vitamin deficiencies, and alpha gal because I eat beef once a week or so.

My favorite foods are tacos, chicken tenders and fries with ranch. 💀🤣 Also, well done steak, potato boats with ranch.

My favorite vegetables are tomatoes, and lettuce.

My favorite fruit are the purple grapes.

My favorite place to be is the east coast. I guess maybe.

I wanna visit Europe and Asia eventually maybe. Not sure. 🤔 I want to get on a plane.

I want to film new experiences.

I want to adopt 4 kids.

I want a wife maybe not sure. Im unable to get over past relationships to move on and be happy.

My favorite animals are moose, sloths, hedgehogs, and animals i am forgetting to be real. 💀

I love tiktok, reddit, Facebook and snap chat. But due to like PTSD and extreme sadness I consistently dissappear from time to time.

I have a car paid in full, since 2024. I bought it in 2020. 😋

Never been in a wreck

Never had surgery

Never had stitches

Never had inappropriate physical relations

Never had various resturants

I have actively been learning Spanish since 7th grade