Ŝafinjo

it's finally happening. you're on your childhood best friend's bed, and she's about to take her clothes off. you wake up in the hospital, thinking you just had an unfortunately really good dream. there's a letter from her near your bed. turns out she had been wearing weights for the entire time you knew her, and the building collapsed once she took them off. she can now move too fast for the human eye to see, so you will never see her naked form in your life. hopefully you can sort this out once you're out of the hospital.

apology video where I, while crying the whole time and occasionally taking breaks to do something to my eyes, apologize very deeply for writing the hero of light out of reality with my doomsday device metaweapon. but almost the full runtime of the video is literally incomprehensible as I keep referencing information that's been removed from history and is thus impossible to directly recall for anyone else. they have to make a censored edit of it because it's really hard to follow sentences when you keep getting forcibly tuned out and losing track of what's being said. they end up censoring my eyes too for unrelated reasons (being mean to me). and in the censored edit they end to realizing that the me in the video is actually the former hero of light turned into me. there ends up being several reddit threads discussing the morality of it but they all conclude I'm in the wrong mostly because I'm a trans woman and this counts as violating the egg prime directive.

you can pry starting sentences with 'and' or 'but' out of my cold, dead hands

i’m kind of like the opposite of a surprise tool that will help us later (it’s no surprise i’m a tool, i won’t help later)

talking to people who like to argue makes me feel like a really ignorant disgusting elf talking to a human I'm like yes I understand that this is your way of finding fulfillment in life and I agree with letting you exist in this way in our world I just don't think that can be normal for any living creature I think your people are fundamentally broken in some way, as if both the eight winds and the five stones forgot about you in your birth

something i like about disco elysium is that although it has an obvious viewpoint (if you think the game isnt explicitly communist you're just wrong i'm afraid) it doesn't make the proponents of the other ideologies big silly goofballs to make this point--joyce and kim are wrong, both morally and factually, but they are wrong eloquently and compellingly. even measurehead, in the final cut, gets a long and compelling (and wrong! and fascist! to be clear!) monologue where he makes the case for his ideology.

like it compares very favorably to a trend i see a lot in media that wants to Say Something About Fascism, which is to have a guy walk on and say 'im fasho the fascist!' and then he slips on a banana peel and goes 'bwagh!'. like--that's not a critique of fascism. you've made the fascist look bad, yeah, but not by attacking any substantial part of their politics or actions. anyone could fall over and go 'bwagh'. it's not even bad critique, it's just not critique, it's painting a groucho marx moustache and glasses onto a photo.

im so fuckin tired girls

(responding to getting flirted with) heh well, youre pretty sexy yaself baby, (lowers sunglasses to reveal my wicked eyes) im not feeling well, i might die soon

everyone thinks I'm so cute especially counting the things wrong w me

starting to think desire may be the root of all suffering

spent most of today seething over someone who literally does not exist. oh well

well im real and she's not. ha. bitch.

that post is awful because I said lacking something is ugly and everyone said yeah having that something is cute then no. it isn't. fuck off

googling "hot dog" while eating a hot dog isn't the godly virtue of curiosity it's just something your boyfriend does

I just posted that because I was mad I had to deal daily my entire life with people who seem to consider all conversations between human beings as a challenge or a fight, and who operate like this under the impression that learning about things they don't know about is a weakness

you don't have to be curious about everything in the world you don't have to want to know everything I'd much rather if you admitted that you will never know everything and cannot afford to actually give a shit about every single thing that exists but for the love of something if you're going to speak to other people please give one shit at minimum about anything you want to talk about

everything I say gets misinterpreted by everyone alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there must be something inherently broken with how I approach human communication!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

considering how much I don't like reading and don't show off the habit to write much either it may come as a surprise to some that I wrote so much poetry for years, but when you reconsider that half of all my posts in this website are trying to warp language to my dominion so I can actually explain something without misinterpretations once ever, then it makes sense