She Wolf

I’m finally writing a letter intended for the one whom I’m gonna be with for the rest of my life. I am so glad it’s you. The stars have aligned for us and here we are counting the days ‘till we say our vows to God, the universe and the people that we love. I can’t believe we’re here. I thought God wanted me to embrace single-hood but he had other plans. He wanted me to meet the one that I was so…

Habang inaabangan ang mga numerong sumasayaw sa bawat segundo— Unti-unting nawawalan ng kahulugan ang bawat kuwit, linya, sigaw, pagsamo— Ang mga iling at salitang pinagdamot— Nanunuot sa kariktan ng sistemang bulok. "Halina't sambahin ang isang huwarang huwad"Harapang sambit ng mga biktimang hangalNagngangalit ang mga pangil ng mga salungat—Sino ba siyang hindi mo nga makadaupang palad? "Pero…

Silence takes over But not the noise in my head I forgot how to breathe again Is this the end? Tucked in a dark corner Only light is in this doomed mirror I just wanted to clear my head Ended up feeding the monsters instead Crying to myself, sleepless in bed Couldn't make anyone understand Couldn't point out whatever drives me mad Pretend and hide I've grown to be so tired When will it end?

Sabik akong makausap ka muli Baka nasanay lang sa araw-araw ba namang lilitaw ka sa tuwing may kwentong sisingit Saglit lang naman siguro ang parusa, sanay naman tayo mag-isa Kaso, mas gusto ko sanang kasama ka Nakita ko na ‘to, tulad ng mga nauna sa’yo Hindi rin nagtagal, napagod din sa wala Dahil kahit naisin ko man ang maghintay Sigurado ka nang walang puwang para sa 'kin Pero bakit kaya kay…

(I was watching Hele Sa Hiwagang Hapis when I thought of writing this poem. The film is a masterpiece, I wish I could finish it before it ends streaming tomorrow. Okay, back to work. )

gabi gabi kaming hinehele ng mga pangako mong napako akala mo’y isang bayani at tagapagtanggol ng mundo tunay mong kulay ay masahol pa nga sa isang aso pagkat alam nito kung sino ang masamang tao sa simula palang…

Sometimes, I just count the days by my office deadlines. But, yep I’m pretty sure it’s been three moths (almost) since CQ happened and boy, if you ask me how I am, i’ll tell you, i’m fine. This is fine. But, it’s really up to you if you believe it. 

I’ve been doing stuff but not to the point that I consider myself productive. I still have a list of things I’ve set aside because I just feel…

I couldn’t sleep because my mind is doing a monologue again. Maybe I’ll write it this time.

I’ve been thinking, (like really over thinking) these past few days. This quarantine had me thinking and reflecting on a lot of aspects. For starters, I’ve been restless and sleepless, the only consolation is I’m at home with my family and I’m thankful for that. My heart cries for the injustices and…

Bumibilis at umiikli ang buhay Kulang nalang ay tumalon sa hukay Araw araw, paulit ulit Nalulunod sa mga responsibilidad mong bitbit Maari bang oras ay bagalan? Ang ganda ng kalangitan ating pagmasdan, Abangan ang paglubog ng araw, at pagliwanag ng buwan, Habang hindi pa kita nasisilayan Nais kong masabik sa ating muling pagkikita Susulat muna ng tula, lilikha ng bagong akda. Hindi mamalayang…

Simula na ng panibagong dekada at naghuhumiyaw ang aking isip na magsulat. Mga ilang buwan na yata. Naiisip ko lang tuloy ang nakaraang gusto ko nang ibaon, itapon, isiksik sa kasuluksulukan ng mga sulok na hindi na kayang puntahan pa. Pero kung hindi naman dahil sa masalimuot, mapait, at minsang simpleng nakaraan, hindi ako magiging ako ngayon. Sa kabilang banda, nagpapasalamat din ako, kahit…

Kinausap ko ang langit

Nalimutan ko nang tumingin sa langit Ngunit sa pag-sulyap ng ilang saglit Ay naalala kong muli na ang nakaraan Ay 'sing ganda ng mga ulap Na minantsahan ng kulay ng araw. Ngunit lilisan din — Lalamunin ng kalawakan Aanurin kasabay ng pag-ikot ng daigdig At kinabukasan ay makikita mong muli Kumusta ka na? Napangiti ka ba sa ala-alang bumangon sa'yo? O naharangan na lamang ng madilim na ulap Ang kagandahan…

A new Lizzie thought up on my blog!

Hi! Yesterday was my 20-nth birthday. Well, for some parts of the world, today is my birthday. I could say I enjoyed it. Woke up laughing at birthday greetings, also thankful to everyone who remembered me and an overwhelming power (well kind of) to look amazing – dress nicely and put extra make-up.

I was in the office for the most part and just bought my favourite milk tea and chicken wings…

you're one year closer to death... happy almost birthday!

It’s just 15 days before my birthday and I don’t know I feel like a crap again. My laziness is on the extremes and I can’t do anything that I’d like to do. It’s like binge-ing and scrolling through this black screen is just the easiest thing on earth and it messes up my mental health again. Ugh. And you know, I really have this habit when my birthday comes up, I became irrationally emotional. I…

Relapse, it all starts again in one blow That lump in your throat that you’ve been trying to swallow The nightmares at night — the could have been Thoughts that could never repair what was ruined

Release, you’ve made it this long Love, go on and see what could go wrong It was never the pain, it was never the fall Sever the doubts they’ve planted in your comely soul

Relapse, it all starts again in…