Lilly’s Playground

Bridget made me dino chicken nuggets and created a whole story about how I could defeat the dinosaurs.

So I did. And they were SO yummy. 😋

This is my (2nd) new rattle mommy made me :3

Like they can’t read it or nothing so

I'm finally home from CAPCon. I had so much fun. It's the first big social gathering I've been to in 6 years besides Pride (which was only a few hours or so compared to CAPCon at 5 or 6 days) the last 2 years, not to mention I stayed in Wichita for a few days at my brother's house. I didn't talk to very many people at Pride either. Things have been more difficult for me socially since before and after my parents died - a lot of stuff happened. So much of it has caused me to force myself to grow up in a lot of ways I wish I hadn't, but at least was able to have some foresight with my (bio) mom due to the circumstances with her pancreatic cancer - as a result, I've had a much harder time relaxing but slowly this seems to have been changing for the better lately. I still have some not-so-great days, but I've been trying my best, I think. I hope. My therapist mentioned I should go to a convention for other Littles and such, and I already knew of CAPCon and I had been to it in 2018, 2019, and 2020. I also considered TFF, but I really wanted to go to CAPCon the most - it's so far my most . The atmosphere with all the cribs, playpens, the decorated nurseries and classrooms, and the immense amount of happy people who came to let themselves be and relax, not having to worry for just a little bit. I met up with some friends, I got my makeup done too! I'm so happy I went. I'm so happy mommy went. I'm so happy that my sister went. I hope they had as much fun as I did, because I had so much fun. There were some times where I couldn't let myself relax enough to be as little as I wanted in the space, but that's okay. I still enjoyed myself very much and I'm glad I went. The trip back home led to me getting dropped off in Wichita - mommy and sis I spent time with my brother. We talked for a while and he showed me all of his stuff regarding our parents, mostly dad's ashes. He showed me the urn and stuff that I had ordered for myself. He also mentioned getting tattoos touched up on (which the one of mom was pretty neat actually). As I'm writing this, Imogen was meowing really loudly, so I went over to go see her and she gave me tons of love, plus she kept sniffing me so I'm sure she smelled my brother's dogs on me.

Here's a picture of my brother's dogs: