SoulSpeak

I recorded a podcast episode and I'm proud of that. Happy I allowed myself the space and time to express how I've been feeling. I'm glad I had the energy for it. Things have been *stressful*

It's a strange feeling

to grow up feeling,

like everyone else does

But then made to feel

out of touch, out of reach

You're too much

Stop feeling. You're not like

everyone else

To be noticed was enough

to make me love

those who told me I was too much

And made me feel like not enough

Never enough as I was

Too much to be who I am

Always feeling too much

of what was wrong

and not being what was right enough

to everyone else that made me feel

like I was something else

It's a strange feeling

to be nothing

in places that expect everything

of you

I'm a bit restless with the quiet moments. But they come anyway, and I sit with them anyway.

My mind feels hazy. I sometimes think it's grief, but it feels different this time around. It feels softer, calmer. So maybe it isn't grief. I'm not sure.