~ Lisa ~

ever since I was a little girl I’ve been aware of everything

the yearningggggg omfg

obsessed with screenshotting things i will never look at ever again

im like if my mom & dad Unfortunately had a baby

at least theres still listening to music while staring at the ceiling

i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

I read this book in a day and a half, and now I am just starring at the ceiling, the fucking yeeeearning and the longing is so well portrayed