positive vibes🤘

i truly believe that things need to get worse before they can become better. and that’s something i’ve learned through all of this. there was a time a legit felt like my world was crashing down and all i was doing was nothing. i let it happen and let it consume me. but now i’m picking up the pieces and finding my way again. i don’t know where i’m going yet or if i have any true destination. but i’m following my heart, wherever that may take me. and doing what makes me happy. i’m finding myself again. and that feels good to admit that. here’s to 2019. a new and better me. big things are coming. bad habits have ended. i’m working on me. the only way is up.

going through old photos is bittersweet. because you’re in so many of them. because at that time in our lives we were together. we were happy. and that was enough. so many memories. so much time. a lot of things recently have reminded me of you. all sorts of things. funny memories. moments where i was happy and you were there. but also other times where i’m brought back to a really sad state i was in because of us. all good things come to an end i guess is the saying. i don’t know when we will talk next, or even if we ever will. but writing to you on here in hopes you have the potential of seeing this gives me closure. the closure we never got… you still hold a piece of my heart. i still care about you. and i truly hope you are doing okay.

this november we are healing from things we don’t talk about

There’s a new boy, he’s really nice and smart and I don’t like him at all. I call him when I need to talk to someone but you’re the one I think about when I can’t sleep. And it’s your voice I hear in my head when I feel lost. I know you’re not good enough for me and I know you don’t deserve my time and I know you don’t think about me at all and I shouldn’t be thinking about you either. But I go out with him and I wonder what you’d be saying if you were sitting across from me instead. And I hate that I let you still have that power.

Fuck.

yall ever be losing your fucking mind but chilling at the same time

😞😞

no offense but i’m soOoOoOo in the mood for a girl to sit on my lap, wrap her legs around me and just kiss me senseless