Nasty Truths

                                                                                                          Part I

This is for the logical thinkers and the realists; the practical people and the problem solvers. This is also for the “sees both sides” individuals; the understanding ones with perspectives and last but definitely not least, the rational ones. Hi :) You’ve pretty much got most of your life figured out; not that its smooth but you have a general idea of what you need, to get where you’re going. You aren’t really afraid to dream big and have great expectations from yourself(even if it's a bit nerve wracking.) You have a few habits that you need to fix, but in time it’ll come. You drink your water most of the time (other times you can be dehydrated due to stress) and keep positive thoughts as much as you can. People who make high emotional decisions are categorized as unstable or irrational to you and require maturity to live a more peaceful life. Once you can explain why something is happening logically, that becomes the solution as well. It’s ideal really. If it makes sense and its visible, then you have concrete evidence to make decisions from. Now, you do express emotions, but mostly the ones that you have control over like happiness, a sad moment, anger, or excitement. From what we have known, your kind.. well our kind, doesn’t  get depressed or experience anxiety regularly because you live your life logically and don’t put yourself in positions to get to that point. Its admirable honestly, because most people struggle in that department and are usually aware of that struggle too. Most people who are “emotional” hate that they are “emotional.” I have a question for you though. What happens when we’re talking about the unseen things? Emotions you don’t even know, you don’t know, that you have? What about anxiety that doesn’t show up emotionally or depression that isn’t presenting itself through emotionalism? Did you know that was a thing? Yeah. That anxiety can be present in a person but not show up emotionally or that depression doesn’t always present itself through emotionalism? Eg: feeling very sad, lonely, suicidal, overly nervous or overwhelmed. Even stress has a different way of presenting itself; you don’t always have to feel stressed to be stressed. The first time I heard that I froze. This could mean I may have experienced anxiety, depression or stress and not even know it.. Meaning I may have been having experiences that have negative effects on my life that I haven’t gotten the chance to fix because I didn’t even know there was a problem. Almost like having silent killers; diseases with no symptoms. 

Kind of like a virus that didn't have to spread but because there were no socially normal symptoms to indicate that there was a problem, it wasn’t caught until things were very bad..

There are things about my experiences that do not align with whom I’m expected to be. This is based on personal expectations and the expectations of the ones around me. Hmm so maybe I should highlight why I’m talking about this.. When a person plays the role of the “Responsible One” amongst their peers, they naturally don’t give themselves leeway to live freely; nor do the peers around them. As a result, when they fail or make mistakes, they typically deal with them in an unhealthy manor, even if they appear to be okay. Appearances can be deceiving, even to yourself…(about yourself.) The other day I read a quote that literally depicts what happens to people who are like this; you know, the ones who always have it together and always have the answers. Yeah, those people. The quote states: “The feeling that cannot find its expression in tears may cause other organs to weep.”- Henry Maudsley, Psychiatrist. This quote is profound simply because a person who does not express vocally still needs to express. It doesn’t go away even if they ignore it or don’t see it. This means it must come out, some way, somehow. “May cause other organs to weep..”: You can actually develop disorders and physical illnesses due to lack of expression. So yeah.. that insomnia you started having out of the blue? Yeah that. Or maybe the fact that you’re suddenly always tired and maybe always constipated? That could be it as well. At first it can appear to be health issues, which makes a lot of sense, but the cause could actually be due to what I like to call “Expression Congestion”. Expression Congestion occurs when a person has multiple emotional responses and doesn’t express it completely or at all. As a result, it builds up in different physical areas of the body and eventually leaks out where ever it can be stored or “expressed”. If that type of person gets in touch with themselves, they usually discover emotions they had no clue they possessed. I remember reading an article about a business woman who decided to get into yoga to release stress and to improve her health. The woman stated that during a session, in her second week of yoga, she was completing a specific position and randomly began to cry uncontrollably although she was in no physical pain or discomfort. She didn’t understand why she was crying and literally had to get out of the position to pull herself back into control. The instructor suggested that she get a piece paper and write whatever came to mind. She began to discover pains and other emotions about experiences in her life that she never knew existed. She made it a trend to carry a journal with her during her yoga sessions to document her emotions. The positions that she had to hold during the sessions were literally releasing “emotional congestion” that was in her physical body due to lack of acknowledgement and expression. Humans are way more complex than we think. I’m sure you already know that reality though.. So this is for the “Responsible One”. Yes you. Your emotional response matters too. Even if you or anyone else thinks otherwise. You are just as important as your obligations. You are in fact more important than your obligations. If you are not healthy, what you do won’t be healthy. Trust me when I say that I know how it feels and I’ve just recently begun this journey. So as the “Responsible One” be responsible and reevaluate what you may be ignoring and what you may not even know. After all, you are the “Responsible One” so please live, responsibly. 😊