Maybe yes or Maybe not

Train to Busan (2016) - Yeon Sang-ho

If you know what I am talking about, you know what it was coming. In about five seconds I remembered why I know this song, what does it mean to me and all the things that are linked to it. I started crying and I wasn't able to stop for the next several minutes.

So, I just thought of something: until now I have never truly thought about what it has to feel like for both Joe and Nicky to cope with the fact that they killed each other several times the first time they met. Just imagine the pain, the guilt and the grief that each of them must suffer everytime they remember that they have killed with their bare hands the love of their life; everytime that they remember that they were so carried by anger and hate that they could have harm the most important person for them.

I’m not done with this yet. If I say that I didn’t love Joe and Nicky sice their first scene, I would lied  plainly. Their chemestry is incredible and their background story has an wonderfull meaning.

“You're a child. An infant. Your mocking is thus infantile. He's not my boyfriend. This man is more to me than you can dream. He's the moon when I'm lost in darkness and warmth when I shiver in cold. And his kiss still thrills me, even after a millennia. His heart overflows with the kindness of which this world is not worth of. I love this man beyond measure and reason. He's not my boyfriend. He's all and he's more”. - Joe   

I lead a group of immortals. An army I guess. Soldiers, fighters like you. - Andy

Two days ago I was watching a film, “Adaptation”, directed by Spike Jonze and written by Charlie Kaufman. It’s a wonderful movie and I really enjoyed it. The main character of the movie is Charlie Kaufman himself and, consequently, he’s a screenwriter; he’s very similar to me and I really empathized with him during the course of the film.

I don’t know if you can understand the feeling of knowing exactly what you want to do with your life, of discovering what your dream is, of knowing what is exactly your way in life; I’ve never felt this and it has always been my dream to know what it’s like to feel it. I’ve always been jealous of those people who has a dream, of those people who knows what is their purpose on life; ‘cause they have some kind of safety; they aren’t confused or insecure, most of the time. I’I just want to be like them.

While I was watching “Adaptation”, for the first time in my entire life I’ve felt it: the indisputable and concrete feeling of having a dream, of knowing what I want to do. It was the most beautiful feeling that I’ve ever felt: it was awesome, incredible; it was so beautiful that I just burst into tears. They were simple and genuine tears of pure happiness!

“SpiderMan: into the SpiderVerse (2018)

 have to admit that I saw this film really late, but I am glad that I did! I surely think that I have never felt so excited about a Spiderman movie since the Raimi trilogy: this film is fantastic! I empathized, as a teenager, with Miles during his journey, dealing with the fear of being a disappointment and not being enough; but every issue in the movie is dealing perfectly and most of them are very mature.

The animation is AWESOME! And the colors too. It’s impossible not to love every character, especially the different Spidermen, due to the fact that every one of them is fully developed.

I just want to talk a little bit about "Shin Godzilla" (2019).

Although I haven't seen all the old Godzilla movies, because I only started loving this character a few months ago, but I have seen all the "Moster Univers" movies released so far and I really enjoyed it. We all know that those movies are simple blockbusters made for entertaining, dealing with very simple matters; but they managed their purpose very well.

Then I saw "Shin Godzilla": it's the Japanese remake of the first Godzilla movie ever made. I'm not going to spoil it, because even though it's a remake, the storyline is slightly different. I just want to share with you all the vibes the new Godzilla design has given me and my opinions on it.

I swear to God, I've never experienced such antagonistic feelings at all: the first form of Godzilla is very creepy but it can really fix the audience's attention, because of the muzzle, with these big wide eyes; the front legs atrophy; and bloody gills.

Then the form of Godzilla changes: it becomes more frightening and huge; it is also very different from the classic draftsmen: the tail is longer, the body is slender and the muzzle is quite frightening thanks to the sharp teeth; and the AWESOME purple hues all over her skin.

Ever since I was a child I have always enjoyed writing: it is one of my greatest passions and one of the best ways to escape; for some years I really thought it could become a job.

In high school I wrote short stories on some sheets with a pencil or a pen, then I gave them to my closest friends and they read them; they were always eager to read them and I was happy because they really liked them. In the last year, right after my brother gave me my first PC, I started typing on the computer and stopped using pencil and paper.

In the last semester I went through a very difficult period, experiencing depression and anxiety: I stopped writing. It is becoming very difficult to write; I feel it as something really unnatural, something that doesn't belong to me. This makes me sad in a way I didn't know was possible.

But tonight, for the first time, I felt an irrepressible urge to write. But I didn't just want to write, I wanted to write again on paper and with pencils. I just realized I was really missing handwriting.