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"why do you think i did something? actually?" she was on the defensive and wasn't thinking about how she could calm this situation at all - it was a solid threat. "go on..." it was like the world was stopping as emmeline put her hands up in a surrender but not to the ac fr which she was being accused. "get me for what exactly? you don't know me." he universe had a pretty strange way of interacting with her, she knew that much. "i didn't kill anyone and you screaming at me..." emmeline shook her head, pursed her lips and crossed her arms. "you honestly need to speak to someone."

"yeah..." emmeline widened her bloodshot eyes and raised her eyebrows. "i-um..." the woman was already upset but now it wasn't about devon at all. "i'm..." don't say guilty. "i may have..." shaking her head, emmeline sighed and crossed her arms - why couldn't she be honest with josie about what had happened? the other deserved it but for some reason, the older woman didn't want her to be privy to seeing her in that way. "i think i'll just go soon/ maybe get a drink, go the the toilet and call it a day."

❝ honestly, if i were you, i'd be feeling more pissed off than guilty right now. you barely knew the guy and suddenly you're public enemy number one because she needed somebody to yell at.❞ his grip tightened slightly around the glass as he looked away from her. ❝ and for the record, if you had killed him, i feel like you'd have kept it a better secret. ❞

"well, i did know him." she was quick to correct that but just felt her internal emotions escalation. "i knew him, it was short, yes, but i knew him." she was being far too adamant as her upset had quickly transferred into the other factors that had been bothering her for longer. "people don't like me... they just don't like me-" she couldn't stop i. "-now people are accusing me of murder, in front of people who already don't like me and what if this all gets back and i lose my job?"

there was the faintest flicker of amusement at the corner of his mouth, subtle enough that most people would've recognised it as a joke, eventually. ❝ although - publicly threatening people at the funeral is probably a little too obvious. amateur move. ❞

the other's face had moved slightly, a flicker of emotion she hadn't received because she wasn't focusing enough. "i've not publicly threatened anyone." things were getting muddled. "that wasn't okay... that wasn't okay." emmeline wasn't about o admit the obvious by saying that she wasn't okay - that would be too melodramatic. "i didn't come here to-" her voice was quiet until it was air -"to be accused of that-" she was mouthing the words by the end of the sentence as her breathing was shallow.

emmeline cowered at the other's rebuttle, her eyes widening as she backed off. it was clear the other was hurting and in some capacity, she could understand it but she was painting her out to be selfish... shut up, i'm talking- that was the gist of it and brought up a lot for her. with that said, she opened her mouth but nothing came out for a few seconds and her tears started to flow. shaking her head again, the woman wiped her eyes. "i didn't do anything! you're trying to make me look bad by throwing this out... here! of all places! and i'm the disgusting one?" no, she couldn't take it because if she did, there was no going back. "get help and leave me the fuck alone!"

"can you shut the fuck up?! right now!" the woman shouted in response to the other. her nerves were shot, there was nothing else, someone was dead and someone was now ghosting her - everything was building up and no one needed this. it felt like she was being pushed. "i didn't fucking kill your boyfriend, what the fuck? certainly not jealous-" that comment had been unnecessary but her blood was boiling. "you're doing this to humiliated me right?" she shook her head as her eyes welled with tears. "like i've not been humiliated enough already..."

"i've not fucking done anything, no, we didn't get along at first-" she was already trying to overexplain far too much in public. "-but i got on with devon! i didn't so anything! please..." it was as if her nerves were truly shot, that she had found some sort of aggression in her that was fueling her on but was then trying to plead with the other. "i don't even know you! what the fuck?"

emmeline turned as the other caught her attention quickly. could one be fashionably late to a memorial? that was what crossed her mind as she looked extremely put together. naturally, she compared herself to the other and wished she looked a bit more presentable. "it is." the woman gave a gentle nod before she looked down, mindlessly picking at the skin at her thumbnail. "very well loved and it's just..." there weren't any words so she sighed instead. "curse? well, it's far from safe." she could do without that word floating around as her mind did like to run away with itself when she was upset. "makes you think, if they're also... or not close at all."

out of all the things that could have transpired today, emmeline did not think that she'd be accused of doing the very heinous act that had brought them all here together. defence mechanisms were keeping in and her adrenaline took over as her breathing became shallow and her heart started thudding in her ears. "what the fuck did you just say to me?" emmeline raised her voice as she stepped away from the other. "what the fuck is your problem? why would you say that to me? in front of all these people?" the other was emotional but so was she so her de-escalation tactics had gone straight out of the window.

she watched her for a moment, taking in the way everything seemed to be hitting her all at once. ❝ you don't have to deal with him right now, if you don't want to. i don't even think he would be worth it, ❞ maisie went on, a little more certain this time. ❝ you can just…stay out here for a bit. breathe. ❞ her gaze flicked toward the building, then back to her. ❝ i can stay with you, if that helps. ❞ she hoped it would. maisie didn't want this kind stranger to be left alone, on what had to be one of the worst days a person could face. ❝ and maybe you could tell me about your friend ?? if you feel up to it, of course. i didn't know him all too well, but he was always so nice when we met. ❞

"people are arseholes." the swede shrugged, her frown now etched heavily into her brow. "i'd rather not to be honest." the woman could feel herself getting upset and the last thing she wanted to do was embarrass herself out here (she was far too good at doing that too easily - it was best for her to shut it down before it got to that point. "it doesn't matter, anyways. think the emotions of today are just getting to me."

he hadn't text back - maybe it would have been better if they hadn't been in the same building, it would have hurt less. "i mean..." emmeline wanted to believe mateo so much but she just didn't. one might have asked why approach him if she knew already - he owed her at least a bit of honesty, honesty that would tip her over the edge but honesty all the same. "yeah, i've kind of being doing the opposite... doesn't feel safe to be in a place by myself here anymore and you decided to not respond to my messages, which is fine but i thought..." shaking her head, she pushed her hair out of her face and sighed. "i thought the worst." her eyebrows raised. "make it up to me? how?"

there was only so much small talk she could take. slipping out before anyone could stop her, maisie made her way outside, drawing in a quiet breath of fresh air - only to pause when she realised she wasn't alone. ❝ hey. do you mind if i stay out here for a little bit ?? i just...needed a moment. ❞ she asked softly, careful not to intrude. her hand dipped into her bag, pulling out a cigarette. ❝ do you mind ?? i've got one with your name on it, if you want to join me. ❞

it was short-lived when the other imposed themselves upon her but there was an offering. "fuck it, yes... please?" she had been taught manners. "it's awful. my friend and to top it all off the guy i'm dating or was... he's here and i get the impression he actually doesn't even like me that much..." the woman shrugged. "so, please, if you're offering..."

emmeline had only been friends for a short time - was it four weeks? she wouldn't be able to quantify it in that way. the woman had always struggled making friends so when they'd got over their initial squabbles with each other, they had got on very well. still, that fact wasn't going to stop her from acting like she knew devon on a very personal level. "it's not even..." the woman shook her head. standing here, she couldn't help but thing about the reason as to why and that was such a haunting part of it. "it's the unthinkable, isn't it?" emmeline barely knew these people yet had turned up for devon.

the woman was spending more time at the beach and less in her apartment - recent events definitely had her more on edge. this had seemed like a good change for her. although work was a new office, same problems, emmeline felt like she could breathe out here . her eyebrows raise as her head spun to see where the expletive was coming from before she released a light chuckle. "i've made my share of impulsive decisions-" the swede mused. "-but never have i given myself a hair cut in a place like this." frowning, the woman tilted her head. "i think it looks nice on you."