I wanna go flex

「 ♡ 」 … *┊                               UNTIL THIS DAY KIBUM has truly thought that he was over it all, that he was over Seungcheol but now that the other man was back, Kibum knew that he has been wrong all along. It was almost a wonder that he wasn’t shaking that he wasn’t stuttering or anything else. On the outside, he was so calm while his insides were going crazy. He even managed to flash a little smile at Seungcheol before he made his way to the kitchen. With shaking hands, he reached for two glasses before he poured some water in those. Quickly, Kibum made his way back and put both glasses on the coffee table, then he sat down on a chair not too far away from the couch. “I’m glad you are fine,” the young dancer finally said, placing both of his hands on his lap. “What have you done lately?” It was weird to start a normal conversation, at least to Kibum when all he wanted was to run away from this situation right now. He couldn’t even look into Seungcheol’s eyes for longer than ten seconds which was a shame but nothing the young dancer could change right now.

( @limceh​ ) – seungcheol & nathan

     Thumping music, bodies close against each other, the strong smell mixed between ALCOHOL and various drugs; it all triggered Nathan into a state that he had been trying to avoid for months now, but something in him had the URGE ( and he knew all too well he should have resisted ) and here he was, attending his first party since late last year. He had done so well, kept clean for EIGHT straight months, but he always ended up here again; sitting on the couch, watching as the people around the table got high on their drug of choice. He could already feel his bodyitching for it, CRAVING it; he hadn’t had a taste in so long.. he was well past the withdraw stage, but anytime he got near drugs, he needed it, ached for it. Looking over at Seungcheol, he wondered if he felt the same way. The two had only come here for a night out, not looking to use again, more so to test their strength ( which obviously was weak ) and see if they could truly be sober. So much for that plan. ❝We’ll just do one hit and that’s it. That won’t hurt, right?❞

Seungcheol had been doing so good, so many months had passed and he hadn’t taken anything, he’d been working hard for himself to not fall back but now that the two of them were in this place it all came back to him. The other’s offer sounded good enough, but he could feel it in his veins that once they got that stuff in them, there was no turning back, he couldn’t just walk out that door and stay clean so easily. A part of him hated himself for doing this, who did he really think that he was, who could handle this, even if it had been several months, he was no where near immune to drugs. Slender fingers ran up and down his arm, a sign of nervousness and need for the thing that was in front of them. “One hit, we can do one, but not more okay?” It was as if he was trying to talk himself into it, that this was okay and it wouldn’t do anything to him other than give him a few moments of high bliss. “Promise me you won’t do more and I’ll do the same.” In his head, he knew that this was a bad idea.

     ❝You could totally rock the green!❞ If there was ONE THING Ahyeon could do, it was boost other peoples confidence. She loved to make others feel good about themselves. Especially those close to her. And her compliments were NEVER lies, she always was honest. ❝A drastic hair change defiantly needs to be thought over.❞ She nodded. Tilting her head, she thought of all the POSSIBILITIES the two could do. ❝It would be hilarious to see you in yoga pants. Are you flexible?❞

“If you say so..Maybe I’ll try it one day.” He smiles at the other, because he appreciated the boost she gave him, despite not knowing if he would really go through with it. “I’m..not the most felxible person but I think I could do a good job in trying..or is this just because you want to see me in yoga pants?” He had never been one to work out fully, yet the fair share of what he’d done did pay off. “You can just ask if you want to see this body you know.” The tone of his voice is teasing, obviously showing his slightly more playful side.  

     The kiss had been somewhat how he expected; it wasn’t much different than kissing a girl, yet, there was some DIFFERENCE– Jonah couldn’t quite put his finger on it. The odd part for him was that he didn’t hate it like he thought he would, but then again, everything with Seungcheol was FUN and exciting. As expected, the kiss didn’t last too LONG and before he knew it he was staring back into his best friends eyes. Grinning, Jonah lets a soft laugh leave his lips, placing his hand onto Seungcheol’s side. ❝Why so surprised? I mean, you’re my boyfriend, aren’t you?❞ He joked. The two were nothing more than best friends, but Jonah enjoyed playing around, calling Seungcheol HIS ( even when they were alone with no crowd to observe ).

He couldn’t help but to let out a small laugh because this was the thing with Jonah, you never knew what was going to happen during their playful times. They had never kissed before, but he also figured that it would happen sometime just because that’s how they act around each other, and with Seungcheol not having had such a close friend before, it was all new but he would never change his ways of being around Jonah. “I know, it was just a surprise because you’ve never done it before.” His head tilted to the side, as if to add onto the innocent act of not knowing why it had really happened.

「 ♡ 」 … *┊                               KIBUM TRULY HOPED THAT it wasn’t obvious that he was shivering so much on the inside. Seungcheol should have stayed a reminiscence from the past now that he was finally over this man again, but his whole world seemed to crumble now that he was standing in front of Kibum again. Something deep inside of him wanted to wrap his arms around this man and tell him how much Kibum missed him while he was gone, some other part of him wanted to throw him out and tell him not to come back again. But Kibum did neither. He just closed the door behind Seungcheol as soon as the other stepped inside and leaned against the door seconds later. “I—” Kibum turned around, smiling the fake smile he has learned to keep when he was with his mother or other people that shouldn’t see his real emotions. “I survived, I guess? What about you?” With a small gesture, Kibum pointed at the living room. “Take a seat? Do you want anything to drink or something?” Was it weird that he was acting like this? Probably, but this was the only way for Kibum to survive this.

   he must admit that the moment he receives messages from the older (without waiting for too long) there is the brightest smile plastered onto his lips. the smile which is usually offered upon his facade is lively albiet not entirely genuine — however, as matters come to seungcheol abruptly every notion to the smallest of all are wholehearted, such as ungae’s smile or the glistening of his eyes… it’s all genuinely keen and loving towards the older one. the brightness and sheer sense of felicity are effects solely seungcheol has on the youngster, it’s quite endearing and astounding to witness.

( message to: lim seungcheol )

oh really? i’d like to hear what your guesses are…

gosh you’re so slow tho :// yes it is you moron

they’re out for the entire night and will be back only tomorrow morning so…

he can’t help but to laugh at how the younger one expresses himself. It had become sort of a habit to just find everything the other does so adoring and cute that he can’t help himself from smiling or laughing at the smallest things. Therefor it does not come as a surprise when he laughs to himself. Reading the messages is almost not needed because seungcheol is already packing his bag ready to head over to ungjae. never in his life had he been this fast when it came to another person.

(message to: na ungjae)

hey, if you’re gonna call me a moron you can find yourself a new boyfriend.

i might not act like it but i do have feelings you know!!!!

     ❝I think you can rock green hair!❞ Ahyeon chuckles along with him, tilting her head as she examines his blonde hair. ❝I love the blonde on you, too.❞ She gives a simple nod. ❝Well,❞ She began, clasping her hands together, a huge grin on her face. ❝There are loads of things we could do!❞ Ahyeon kept a planner full of video ideas so that she never ran out. Some she scratched out because at first they sounded good but, in the end the idea totally sucked. ❝We could do a challenge of some sort. Those are always fun! All those ‘so-and-so does my makeup’ seem to be a classic, ‘eat it or wear it’, ‘yoga challenge’ … there are a million more.❞

“You really think I could rock the green? Maybe I should try that sometime, but really it needed to be thought through of course..” He let’s out a soft chuckle at these words, because yet again he had never tried anything ‘outragous’ with his hair, but he admired people who do.“There’s so much we can do though..how will I ever decide, or I mean, how will we ever decide on what to do?” A small hum leaves his lips, despite him not having done things like this a lot he still wanted the content to come out good both for her because it’s her job and everything. “ What do you feel like doing? Like, is there anything you think I’ll be good at or that could suit us.?”

     ❝Somehow, I think you’ll manage.❞ A grin tugged at the corner of his lips as Seungcheol’s cheeky smile forms. Jonah had never experimented with his sexuality (other than the little jokes he played in public with Seungcheol, if they could count), purely because he didn’t feel the need to, though he always had wondered if kissing a guy was any different from kissing a girl. He didn’t really think there could be, kissing was kissing. ❝That’s because you’re mine, you idiot. Of course no one else gets to do this with you. ‘Cause if they had, well, that’s cheating.❞ Eyes glancing at his best friends lips, Jonah leaned forward to close the small gap between them, head tilted slightly as he presses his lips to Seungcheol’s; something he had never done before but, there was a first time for everything, and he’d rather experiment with his best friend than a stranger; how he had done many times before with various other things like smoking, drinking, and even drugs.

“Oh really, well we just have to wait and see.” He chuckles at the other’s words. Never in his world had he imagined himself standing like this with his bestfriend. Not that it was a big surprise to him, but  what he didn’t see coming was the kiss. now even if he knew where he was standing in his sexuality (which he always said he was straight but come on.) he didn’t expect Jonah out of all people to do this, especially in a public place. Despite the other’s lips not feeling terrible against his own, the kiss doesn’t last long because even if seungcheol is known for not caring, he didn’t want them to get thrown out, or get things thrown at them. pulling away from the kiss there’s a soft laugh leaving his now, and a tilt of his head which indicates that he was surprised at the action, but nowhere near mad or upset for it. “Well..look at that.”