never again

it’s more than just sad and sadness though.

I feel like I’ve lost my identity. I’m no longer a person with a life or hobbies or pet peeves or feelings. I don’t have any real friends anymore. I went to a party this past weekend and I was only referred to as their boss. Not a friend, not a person, just someone they see at work and get emails from. Almost the entire time I was just corned by one guy who wouldn’t shut the fuck up about work and how the dumb couches got rearranged. Work is literally the last thing I want to think about -much less talk about- while I’m trying to enjoy myself. I don’t wear my staff shirt while not at work for a reason. I left early because I felt so unwanted. I went home and drank alone and cried myself to sleep.