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seeing the two love scenes together, i see what freen meant when she said the ep 11 love scene was more romantic and delicate after seeing people calling the ep 8 love scene delicate because of how intense the ep 9 love scenes were.

sam: if you call me chamcham ill bite your l-

I have so many thoughts about the episode, but like everyone involved in the show deserves so much recognition. The editors, director, stylists, this show wouldn’t have taken off the way it has without the amount of care and detail from everyone involved with making the show. I hope at some point whoever is in charge of rights and distribution can make the series available on dvd.  I’ve loved/loved to hate all the characters, but Mon was always the hardest for me to understand because she is so young, and the motivation behind some of her decisions wasn’t apparent in the first 5 eps on first viewing (no shade on Becky, I think she’s done wonders with Mon’s character). But when Mon said she could be whatever Sam needed, even though the idea was clearly hurting her, I was like: okay, I see you. I get it. Mon’s always going to do what she thinks is the right thing, about everything, not just work. She’s always gonna react to situations, not do what she wants, unless it comes to Sam. Sam is the one who has shown Mon it’s okay to do what Mon wants. So when Kirk got in her head, I was so proud of her for getting through that convo with him. I knew obviously that she was gonna leave, just like I knew Sam would cave to grandma on her own; but that conversation with Kirk and her, Mon stuck to her guns, wanting to believe that she and Sam were still doing the right thing- that they deserved to be happy. I really liked how, for even just a day, Mon chose what she wanted. Nice bit of character growth imo. Becky is amazing and talented, and don’t even get me started on what she did in the last scene. Sam. Sigh. Freen broke my heart so many times in this episode. I’ve always loved Sam as a character, even though I’d say for most viewers Sam was toxic until halfway thru the series. And to be clear, yes she does have some toxic traits, but it’ll take years away from her grandma to resolve those. I’ve always had a softspot for strong silent types that have been hurt but still continue on, and Freen does an amazing job giving Sam different facets and layers. This episode is just… the way Sam was so honest about what she needed, about what the situation would be if Mon stayed- that she said Mon didn’t have to stay, but that Sam need Mon. It was completely heart wrenching that she was trying to be open, to give Mon a choice, but to also do what Mon had asked and be honest about what she wants. I don’t think I made it through a single scene of Sam’s without crying. And the last scene, ugh. Sam was all ready to go in, and her sister wasn’t there, but she was going to go fight grandma anyway for her and Mon. That she told Mon to wait, so grandma wouldn’t hurt Mon again, perfect, even though she just made it a thousand times harder on herself. As soon as Sam had begged Mon not to leave, and managed to convince her to stay, I knew grandma was toast, but I had really hoped she would have back up. The look on Sam’s face when she saw grandma and Kirk, the two people she had been closest to and loved the most, and then they ignored her- the way Freen conveyed the love, hurt and betrayal was top notch. Even though it hurt Sam to hurt them, you could tell she still thought there might be a chance they would see her. Sam didn’t break even when grandma collapsed, but then grandma said her plan would make Sam happy, and Sam knew that was wrong. Freen really sold me on Sam’s devastation that grandma really would never see her or love her as much as Sam did. I was so thankful Neung showed up then, if only to give Sam a moment to not think about that. Of course Neung went off on grandma (yay!), but the look of fear on Sam’s face, how she was so worried this would push grandma into a worse condition that just momentarily collapsing, that was just daggers that made me feel guilty for enjoying Neung’s defense.