The garden of my mind

why are you so hard to write

my fingers stop my mind is blank

i never seem to get it right

the pictures form and words appear

rythms come with glee

all in my mind to combine

upon the page uncomplainingly

but in my mind is where they stay

for when theyre brought before the page

of so long ago

Where instead of nothing

there was something

it was home

it was mine

and i had a place to go

now i am nothing

with nowhere to be

I wish for the universe

My voice speaks for its own

Finally knowing

Which words to turn

Placing meaning

Behind feeling

For once I didn't stutter

For once I was able

For once I could

For once

I

Your clouds remain calm

Silver linings are nothing

When the storm rages on

Your truths will be found

When you are waiting

Be still be steady

There's always a calm.

After the storm

Your Greys will turn warm

If you're asking me I will say that

Clouds are better than stars anyway

They are puffy they are fun

You can see shapes and hide from the sun

Your clouds may be stormy but thats all part of the fun

Standing in the rain

Watching the sky turn purple and pink

They release chaos while still being so calm

We are like twins in a mirror

Only slightly different

Almost a clone

A hair of a difference

I am you

I do what you do

I have what you have

I don't want to do

What you have done

She tells me to protect myself

Don't become all-encompassed

Don't let him manipulate

Live your life

How can I protect myself

When I am him

And we are one in the same

Terror and uncertainty

Scream through me

Asking me

Pleading for an answer

Be cautious

Keep your prayers close

Don't drop them

He said

"He hates me

He hates you

And everything close to me"

Be weary

Be observant

He will make you

His servant

Say your prayers

Read your scriptures

Be a good little angel

He says all these things to me

But his mind is delusional

He has all of my love

And all of my trust

He has all of these things

don't cry, blue skys

this will pass, it'll be alright

chin up

I say

my chin may be up but my eyes are down

and my heart yearns for understanding.

My head hurts with all the confusion

with all the swirling images and feelings

Everything I cant explain

everything is a mess

Im a mess.

I'm confused

all I wanna do is

cry

But they say don't cry

because the skys are blue

My favorite color is blue

Its beautiful and full of wonder

Im full of wonder too

wondering whats going on

Wondering where I am

Wondering what I want

All I do is wonder

Because I'm

So happy and free

Driving along my favorite roads

Sitting all alone on a tree

Listening to music And singing along

My heart broke as I heard the words fall from your mouth

My world has just collapsed