Mimi.

how much of yourself are you allowed to give to others?

how are we supposed to know whether the sacrifices and compromises we allow ourselves to withhold for the sake of our loved ones is worth it? perhaps it’s selfish of me to even dare to question it, but how much should a person willingly compromise their pride and self-respect for the sake of others, especially when it is very clear that no one seems to be reciprocating your efforts?

in my case, i'm an extremely loyal person to almost everyone around me. i have always been there for people and would always go out of my way to be there for them. I’ll even sheepishly admit that my absence would definitely leave an impact on everyone around me, they all depend on me for so much. i am obviously blessed and grateful for that, and i understand this may come off to some as me bitching about nonsense, but for some reason, i subconsciously believe that people around me do not genuinely ‘care’ about me, but more so ‘depend’ and ‘rely’ on me. in short, i give more than i receive , that added with my independant nature does not help my case. no one checks up on me unless i take the initiative.