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“ no! ” he yelps, dodging out of the way but slipping. “ scotty! ” he groans, glaring at the other from where he’d fallen on the carpeted floor.

he lets out a small gasp when he sees him fall, and he immediately holds a hand out to him to help him up, “ oh my gosh. i’m so sorry. i was just trying to get you to smile.. ” he says, feeling guilty.

“ scotty no. i will cut you. ” he states, eyes narrowing as he wraps his arms around his sides as if to shield himself.

“ i’m gonna do it.. ” he repeats, grinning a little before he reaches over and attempts to tickle his sides.

“ don’t you dare...! ”

“ i’m gonna do it... ” he giggles lightly, moving closer to the other boy.

          “no! stop it! get away from me!” he shouts, batting his arms out in front of him because his head is telling him that scotty is going to hurt him. he’s been lying to dexter, he hates him, thinks he’s crazy. it’s terrible, he wants it to stop, to go away. “i don’t want to talk to you– get the FUCK away from me! you’re a liar, you’re bad, a liar! liar! get away!”

         he feels tears start to brim in his eyes, taking everything that dexter was shouting at him to heart. “no. no. no. i’m not b-bad! i’m good!” he’s sniffling now, trying to keep his tears from overflowing. he didn’t know how to handle this, and he was honestly a little scared, taking a step back from the other boy. “dexter, i’m not a liar! believe me, i’m not a liar!” he shouting back, voice cracking slightly.

            “get AWAY. stop– get away from me. get the FUCK away from me! you’re lying, you’ve been lying to me! just– just stop it!” he shouts, backing himself up to the wall, having another episode. he feels everything spinning, every word the other ever vomited at him coming back– LIES, all of them. all lies. he was close to tears now. “just stop!”

           “d-dex? what are you talking about?” his voice is shaking a little but he’s trying to stay calm, not really sure what going on with dexter right now. he’s slowly approaching the other boy, like one would a frightened animal, “i’ve never lied to you.. i swear i haven’t! please, just calm down and we can talk about this?” he tries to say it like a statement but it comes as more as a question, as he keeps some distance between him and the blond, not wanting to freak him out more.

he nuzzled up to the boy, savoring the feeling of being in his arms, because he knew scotty would have to leave him the next morning and be gone. he wasn’t sure how he would cope with being alone, but he was already looking forward to seeing his boyfriend and he hadn’t even left yet. the others words took him by surprise, causing his eyes to suddenly go wide as he gaped at him. “y-you do…?”

he'd be lying he said that the words hadn’t taken him by surprise as well. he felt his cheeks flush, just barely visible on his dark skin as he looked down at caleb with slightly widened eyes. “... y-yeah. i do.” he said, a bit of hesitation, “i love you, caleb.” he feels like a little bit of weight was lifted off his shoulders at being able to say those words to the smaller boy, although there was a little apprehensiveness, not knowing if it was the wrong time to being saying ‘i love you’.

Jagger beamed up at Scotty, but quickly turned his attention back towards the little puppy in his arms. It wasn’t until he heard his name that he actually spoke to the other two. “I had class and I had to work. That’s why I have this little guy. I’m taking care of him until someone can adopt him. Unless of course you want to keep him?”

Scotty giggled himself and he leaned in to give Kyle a kiss. He smiled as he listened to his boyfriends talk about their days and he looked over at Jagger, as he tossed the salad for their dinner. He beamed a little at the thought of keeping the adorable puppy, always wanting a puppy of his own. “I would love to keep him, but do you guys want to keep him too?” he asked, glancing between the two of them, knowing that he couldn’t make the decision without the two of them agreeing too.

when the day has come. that I’ve lost my way around & the seasons stop & hide beneath the ground. when the sky turns gray & everything is s c r e a m i n g. i will reach inside. just to find my heart is beating. oh, you tell me to h o l d on. oh, you tell me to h o l d on, but innocence is gone                                                                                                                                    & what was right is wrong

“i th-think…i w-would r-really l-like that. the c-commute b-between us j-just cuts o-out too m-much of o-our c-cute cuddly t-time together,” he says with a little nod and a giggle. he leans up, nudging his nose against soctty’s chin and smiling a bit to lighten the mood. he didn’t like being sad, especially not when the other was going to have to leave soon.

the giggle from caleb and the little nudge, has scotty smiling and he leans down to nudge their noses together like a little eskimo kiss. the little affection that caleb gave him was something he was going to miss desperately when he was gone. he pressed their lips together in a gentle kiss, before he pulled away a little to be able to look at the smaller boy. “i love you, cal.” he says with a gentle smile, “to the moon and back.”

he felt the hesitance in the way scotty put his arms around caleb, and it kind of hurt because he knew that the other still wasn’t out. if gay in hollywood was an easy thing to be now, being bisexual was the hard part. caleb himself didn’t get the same ridicule that his boy was subjected to, and he knew it hurt them both. ‘ you m-mean th-that? ’ he asks, clinging to him tightly.

he hated that he was still hesitant to show caleb affection, even when they were in private. the fear of being accidentally outed kept him from freely showing him any affection without some sort of hesitation. ‘ mhm, you could stay with me at my place, or i could stay at your place. it’ll just be us together. ’ he says, giving his forehead a quick kiss, ‘ that sound good? ’

“I’m not useless in the kitchen!” Jagger pouted. Truth was he was too busy playing with their new puppy to be of any use to Kyle. “But hi honey I missed you,” he smiled up at their other boyfriend from his spot on the floor.

Scotty looked between the two, and he smiled, so glad to be home after a long day, “Hi, sweetie. Missed you too.” He said, bending down to give the top of Jagger’s head a kiss, and the puppy’s head a little pet, before he made his way to the kitchen to help his other boyfriend. He pressed a quick kiss to Kyle’s cheek, “Hi, baby,” he greeted quickly, before he helped toss the salad, “How was your guys’ day?”

          a smile crept onto her plump lips as she listened to the complaints roll off the others tongue, her head shaking in disagreement. “oh c’mon. you can’t blame me for wanting this. look at how great you are.”

         he kept his face hidden in his hands, and he shook his head, “no. no. it’s really awkward to see myself acting. c’mon, i’ll do anything else, just please let’s not watch this.”

‘ y-yeah…it’s j-just hard s-sometimes. when y-you’re away, i g-get so l-lonely…ugh, th-that sounded r-really co-dependent o-of me… ’ he trails off, shaking his head.

‘ no. no. it’s okay, i mean i get really lonely without you too.. ’ he gives him a small smile, before he hesitantly wraps his arms around the smaller boy. ‘ hey, just think after i finish filming you’ll get to have me all to yourself for awhile. ’