Trust me I'm lost too

Why is it I seem to be the only one that stops for the person at the crosswalk or let's cars in front of me? Is it that hard for people to be nice? I keep giving people chances after things they do to me or say to me. I can't help it though. People keep asking me why are you so kind still to them? Well it's because we are all having a hard time. No one is better than you or me, they really aren't. I've had this friend for quite a few years now and honestly I've given him more chances than anyone can probably count. That's because even though he has hurt me doesn't mean he deserves hurt back. You gotta help people who are struggling. Then again aren't we all? Don't assume things about anyone it's not fare. I know I know, now your probably saying "well life isn't fare" and it's not. But doesn't mean you need to make it harder for others. Just try for a few days be as kind as you can to people, let them over in traffic, stop for them to cross the street. Trust me you will feel like your in a better place.

Then I just walked away. Why is that weird??? Why is that an issue??? I've seen her go in with hers. Come on just let people do their thing.

Well yes I do want a title, but not really sure how to come up with one. So I guess I should let those of you who might even come across this know a little about me. Well I'm 19 didn't really have a dad growing up. I've moved more times than I can count, and well I'm clearly not ready for this adult thing. But I have to be. As I'm sure you can already tell well my punctuation sucks. Why is that? Well that's because my mom thought it was a good idea to send me to a hippy school when I was supposed to learn how to do that right. Instead of learning how to do that I learned how to clean my teachers house and pull weeds in her garden. Not such a great idea any more huh? Well then next I was thrown in to another school, just as bad if you ask me. It was very self directed, and if you didn't fit in at first you never would. I never did I hid in the bathrooms I had one friend who ended up being kicked out. You might also be asking "well why are you telling me this" that's because I woke up this morning sick I couldn't talk and I was sneezing and coughing like crazy. While laying here for hours I realized, you know I am really bad at adulting. Last night I pierced my lip again this time on my own. Big mistake right? Well my lip is quite swollen now I look like I got lip injections. See I'm bad at adulting.