Life As Cydney

“We could have been happy. I know that, and it is perhaps the hardest thing to know.”

“Understand, I’ll slip quietly away from the noisy crowd when I see the pale stars rising, blooming, over the oaks. I’ll pursue solitary pathways through the pale twilit meadows, with only this one dream: You come too.”

“yes, I still believe the stars aligned with the idea of us together.”

“we haven’t spoken in months, but it still brings me comfort to think that every night we are under the same moon and stars. that makes physical distance not seem like that big of a deal. but then i remember what we had was not destroyed because of physical distance- we were lightyears away from each other both mentally and emotionally. but every night, i still look up at the moon and stars and think you, and hope that maybe sometimes you think of me too.”

Fall in love with your best friend. The one who knows you front to back like their favorite book, who can make you laugh like no one else. Fall in love with the one who fights for you and you fight for them because, god, they are worth it, and so is this. Fall in love with the one who memorizes the speckles in your eyes like the stars in the night sky, who looks at you like you were made for them, and just them. Fall madly in love with them. Because this kind of love only comes around every once in a blue moon.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry that my best wasn’t good enough for you. I swear I tried, I tried so fucking hard for you and it wasn’t enough to make you stay. You weren’t willing to fight for us, for me. So now I’m stuck here with my heart in my hand because you didn’t want it, you said I was too damaged.”