What is burnout to me?
I find myself powerless and introspective. In my period of recalibration, I am back at observing this alien concept to me which is burnt out. I learnt that it came about by me being too strong, too brave, suffering, pushing through for too long. But is it really what burnout is?
I find myself at the beginning stage. again, learning to live solo, spending time alone and finsing courage. I learnt that walkign slow can regulate my nervous system, and allowing myself to feel is what. heals me. Allowing myself to sit in the dicomfort without distractions. I have learnt that having rest and sleep can take me a long way and not sleeping day to day can lock me to bed for the next week. Only leaving myself questioning whether is that the real me? My old self would have gone there and there and there and would still wake up 8 AM marshing to the studio all happy? Grumpiness, hey, what are you about. I feel so much happier coming out of my shelter. I find that connection helps me heal. I heal when I face what is underneath my skin. What emotion do I feel right now? I feel calm. But is there unexpressed?
