be fearless

He screamed in my face but I won’t tell a soul.

Life is pain and I feel it so deeply. I will not make it.

My life is destined for violence.

I don’t think my friends actually like me.

I don’t understand my need to shout when I’m hurt.

That hurt.

I can’t stop thinking about you

It only took me three years but I deleted your phone number. I may still have it memorized for now but hopefully it fades. Maybe I won’t be so tempted to text you. Maybe the nightmares will stop.

I really thought the dreams had stopped.

I miss you so goddamn much. It’s fucking killing me.

I just want it to end

I wish you weren’t so preoccupied with him. I wish you could see how much I’m drowning. I wish i could tell you. I wish you would be here and I wish that you would hold me.

Im so tired of fighting.