Getting Used To It

Oh I’m sorry, I forgot girls were only used for our body and y’all don’t understand our emotions, remind me to listen to myself next time when I say “don’t settle down”

If I had known our relationship was going to be revolved around sex maybe I would have slept around first then got with you, so I won’t feel as stupid to feel sorry for not wanting to do anything. Nothing is wrong. I CAN choose not to have sex with everything still being okay, there shouldn’t have to be a reason for me wanting to say no. There shouldn’t be a reason for me saying not to touch me today. There shouldn’t be a reason for me saying “hey I don’t want to see you today” sorry my depression has been kicking my ass lately and I’m sorry you think of yourself first before saying “no it’s okay we don’t have to” instead of getting all upset about it. Sorry that a girl has to make you feel good when she’s already tired of not feeling good

I always wanted to relate to 90s movies with your hand in my back pocket, you being (stupid enough to be) paid to take me out, or you leaning against your car saying “yeah you” across the street from me. I realized we are much more than those movies. We were more like Dom and Letty, you ride I ride type thing.. and maybe that’s what let us here today

I don’t understand myself anymore

He makes me feel like I could love myself again

They said people who do drugs like the feeling after rather than during. Maybe that’s why when you left I wanted you more.

How do I tell someone about what I wanna do and what I feel like when I don’t even know what I’m feeling.

It’s difficult to even think about how nobody knows you relapsed but you want to get better again

I try not to care too much cause he seems and shows like he doesn’t care anyway

It sucks, when someone admits that they’re falling for you and you have no idea what to do because you hardly talk about your feelings and you don’t want to get attached to someone. Maybe it’s been too short of a time, maybe it’s because he kind of knows my family already, maybe it’s because he talks so openly and I can’t do that. Maybe I just don’t want to admit my feelings to anyone because of how long I’ve kept them inside, what if I mess up? What if he doesn’t actually like me? What if he’s messing with me? What if he just wants my body and not me.

A couple of month ago I had said I felt so much better than I did when I was 15

Oh hunny, he won’t remember the small things..

When they ask why we didn’t work out please don’t go on about how we both wanted different things, because I wanted you and you didn’t want me. Actually... go ahead and tell them how YOU wanted someone different.

3:29am

Settling down is for losers