I Have 3 Earlobes

Literally amazing. I cannot WAIT to be in here living my life. Filming silly videos.

I haven’t posted since 2020 and holy shit it’s been a hectic 4 years! I’m sober now and have been for almost 4 years, it’s kind of boring but I guess pretty okay for my life and mental health. Sobriety really has stripped away a lot of what I thought made me “me”. Although in saying that, sobriety has given me the option of sustainable employment, which in turn, has granted me the insane opportunity to own a home.

I hate feeling paranoid, I feel trapped in my house and too scared to do much of anything at the moment.

I have “started over again” here so many times it’s almost a tradition. Still have the same habits, basic personality whatever ese blah, which means doing nothing at all sadly enough. Desperately wanting to go party or be social and have a “family” kind of dynamic again.

Doing lots of research and soulising, YouTube videos and stories, I think I am non-binary? I think I am demisexual. I think I am autistic? But I don’t know how or who to talk about it. For my entire life I generally don’t talk about that kind of thing in regards to myself because of reactions like “she’s just seeking attention” or being accused of faking it to seem interesting. ???