Summary: You had been raised in a family who firmly believed in the free usage of quirks but your whole world changed when your parents died because of them, but for change you canât take revenge immediately.
Warnings/Tags: yes romantic but no romantic, slight angst, Betrayal, Â mentions of death, probs some brainwashing going on too, fem!reader but can be read as neutral perfectly I just wrote she/her pronouns and was too lazy to change it.
A/N: I saw a prompt I interpreted it, I like depressing stuff, fight me. Anyways you can interpret how Hawks feels about you here. Btw, I like metaphors, theyâre fun.
Ever since you were young, you were taught one thing: âEveryone should be able to use their quirks freely.â For most of your life, you truly believed that until you moved to Deika City. Most people in this city thought the same way as your family did, except some; one of those who didnât agree was your best friend. It was weird since before you knew them, you didnât even think about heroes; you just thought of them as people who thought of themselves as superior for being able to use their quirks legally, but slowly, throughout your friendship, you started paying more attention to heroes and to their achievements. Thatâs when your beliefs started crumbling bit by bit.
It didnât take long for your parents to realise that you were doubting everything they taught you, and so your life turned into a game of tug of war, each side trying to make the other one fall. The side that fell first? Your best friend and their family. You werenât sure what happened, but one night was all it took for their house to be emptied. You went back to how your life was before, eventually meeting new people who introduced you to others, and so you climbed up the ladder, forgetting all your doubts as if they had never existed.
A long time had passed since your friend had disappeared when you were warned that you would have to fight the League of Villains soon. You didnât like the idea of fighting another group of villains, especially not if both sides could reach an agreement, since both your ideas were similar. You didnât fight. The day the battle came, you told your parents a bad excuse, and that you would be back, then you left for the nearby mountains and stayed there watching it all unfold. When you saw things calm down, you walked back down and headed towards your house. On the way there, someone stopped you, a family friend. They grabbed your wrist and dragged you towards a specific street, and there you saw them, your parents, splattered on the ground. Your world came tumbling down in just a few seconds, leaving only a lingering question standing. If everyone were able to fight, would this happen to more people? If so, maybe some things must be changed.
Soon after a new leadership was announced, you stood in the crowd looking up at all the new league of villainsâ lieutenants. One of them had killed your parents, and you knew who. The rest of them? They had changed this whole organization for the worse. Everyone else seemed to follow Re-Destroâs word blindly, but you understood that they didnât want the best for you. Your parents were an example. If you wanted to make a difference, knowing that the lieutenants were way stronger than you, your best shot was to befriend Toga, climb the ladder, and gain support. Once you had the power, you would take your revenge. Just for one second, your focus wavered off her. You couldnât shake the feeling of being watched. You looked around, trying to catch someone staring at you. Instead, you were surprised by a red pair of wings talking to a few other members. Hawks? The number two hero? It didnât make sense, and you were convinced the black-haired guy from the League agreed with you as you saw him take Hawks away. You should really learn the names of the lieutenants if you want to befriend one of themâŚ
It didnât take you long to befriend Toga. You were in the kitchen and accidentally cut yourself, and you guessed she really liked that because the next second she was next to you holding your bloody finger as if it was a trophy. After that, it was easy to get her to your side. Every time you got hurt, you went to her and showed her because you âthought of her every time you saw bloodâ. For her, that was a declaration of friendship. Just as you started hanging out more with her, Hawks started showing up more in your life. You knew he was very important for the higher-ups since he had some of the most important connections in here, but you couldnât help but feel suspicious of him. Every time he talked to you, it felt like he had an ulterior motive behind his conversations, yet Toga kept telling you how he helped Twice out, another one of the lieutenants. Could it be he agreed with the ideology, just not how it was being executed? You let him get closer. He was your only chance at changing the parts of these beliefs that would make people end up like your parents.
You found yourself alone in the forest one morning, sketching different kinds of flowers, when you bumped into Hawks. You were in your own world, just like he was in his.
âYouâre drawing something?â He curiously asked, looking at your sketchbook.
âYes, there are plenty of flowers here that most people donât pay attention to when walking through the forest.â
He simply nodded at your statement. For one second, you felt like he was analysing you as if trying to figure out if you also had another reason to say what you did. You didnât, but if he was looking for one, then there are two things it could mean. So, you risk it.
âYou know most of these flowers arenât a big deal; they just stand there pretty, but other flowers can be dangerous. You never know, especially not if you havenât studied them all.â
âAre you trying to tell me something?â His stance immediately changed into a defensive one. You just started a fire, and you had to pick between two extinguishers to put it out, one worked one didnât.
âI donât know you well enough, but Iâm also pretty sure you donât really agree with the higher-ups.â His eyes narrowed, and you stopped talking for a second to listen to see if he would say something. He didnât. âI donât agree with them either.â
That last phrase seemed to calm him down. You had picked the right extinguisher.
âIf you disagree, why are you still here?â
âShe killed my parents. Toga, I mean. Sometimes I really want to end her life right then and there, but I donât. I need her.â
âHero society is corrupt, but so are the people here; both are going to end up destroying themselves. I have a chance to change this place, and I will introduce them to something new. But for that, I need Toga. Iâll take my revenge once I earn peopleâs support.â
You tried to read his face after you explained your intentions to him, but were met with a blank poker face. You could rely only on his words, but he didnât speak. He never spoke. He just patted your shoulder and walked further into the forest.
A week had passed from that interaction, and you had talked with him on multiple occasions, but the moment you two were alone, he claimed he had something to do and left. Everything he did left you more confused. He didnât tell anyone about what you said, but he didnât talk to you either. You soon found out why.
You found yourself sitting alone in the forest one morning, sketching one flower over and over again, trying to get it perfect, when a shadow covered your light source. It was Hawks. You were in your own world; he had been looking for you.
âI was thinking about what you told me.â He stretched out his hand. You took it, and he dragged you upwards, pulling you into a hug.
âItâs unfair what happened to your parents. I agree with you, these people are corrupt. Iâm sorry.â
You hugged him back, letting your guard completely down. He was the first to acknowledge that your parents' death has more than a sacrifice. But then you realised. He never said he agreed with you completely; he only pointed out one part of what you said. You tried pulling out, but he held you tight, not letting you go.
âIâm sorry.â He whispered again. Your vision went black.
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You didnât know how much time had passed since you got arrested; you only knew that while you were locked up, a whole war had passed. No one had visited you, and you werenât expecting anyone to, but what you were expecting less was for the same person who made your arrest possible to be the one visiting you. He looked different; his face was scarred, but most importantly, the red wings that made him so recognizable were gone.
You both stared at each other for what felt like an eternity. He was the first one to speak.
When you first revealed your intentions to him, he was conflicted. He already knew something was wrong with your worldview when he saw you glaring at one of the League of Villains' members, Toga Himiko. Unlike everyone else, you didnât seem to welcome them, especially not her. Could you be different? As the days passed, he started seeing you hang out around Toga increasingly. Maybe you changed your mind? But no, all your conversations told him otherwise. You were sweet, you seemed to care about the well-being of others, and you wanted an order for it.
âShe was born in the wrong place.â He repeated to himself. âIt shouldnât be too difficult to change her ideas.â
Turns out, you truly did believe what you were taught. And you were so determined that he started thinking you might just become the next leader if he forgot about you. So, he didnât. He ambushed you and knocked you out, leaving you defenceless for when the heroes came, so you could be arrested without fighting back. He thought that would be the best course of action.
âIt shouldnât be so difficult to change her ideas.â Thatâs what he thought. How hypocritical of him. You and he werenât that different. You both wanted to help people, but you were taught one way to do it that you kept following. He never truly let go of his path, so why would you?
He looked at you through the glass. You looked the same, as if your face had frozen the last time you both saw each other.
âI understand.â You smiled at him.