awh, poor muffin

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I don’t use tags. This stuff is only for me and those who choose, with informed consent, to follow me.

I don't check the acct of every single post I interact with. If I interacted but you're a minor, or it otherwise bothers you, just block me.

I want friends!

Similar age range, or if you're married/parenting, or in uni.

Bonus points if you have also been actually obese, but I don't discriminate.

TW: STATS/PROGRESS UNDER CUT 👇

C W: 269.6 / 122 ---------- January 30th, 2026

Reason: falling off (and technically being 3mos pregnant...) and finding a husband who uNfOrTunAteLy LovEs aNd aCCePtS mE aS i aM

Banked tattoo money: $0

C W: 265.8 / 120.2 ---------- February 3rd, 2026

Down 3.8 / 1.8 in 4 days!

Reason: grief. can’t wait to get back on my meds, too. they’ll help suppress cravings even more, and i’ll be able to actually distract myself with schoolwork and stuff. i’m lowkey considering weighing myself before and after surgery/miscarriage to see how much of a difference it will make. it probably won’t be much, which will be a good reminder that i just used pregnancy as an excuse to eat as much of whatever i wanted when it should have been a time to focus even more on being healthy. im not even working right now either because of everything, so that will help even more. this is all punishment for being fat. i can’t wait to be skinny and inked 🤞 the version of me i was trying to get to in high school when i ruined everything by bingeing and throwing away all of my money on fucking chocolate bars and mcdonalds. i was building a good body finally and i ruined myself. i disgust myself. i hate myself so bad. it’s just so disappointing, like honestly. one of the few things i actually have control over is what i jam down my fat throat and i cant even do that right for myself. and for my husband. and for my baby that just got suffocated to death in my giant disgusting doughy gut.

Banked tattoo money: $0

Birthdays ~ someone else's your own etc., don't you want to look good for the birthday photos and feel in control when you say no to the cake?

Holidays ~ Imagine Christmas rolling around this year and not having a panic attack over how much you weigh

Everyone being jealous of you ~ Imagine all the boys and girls and people who will look at you and either be envious of you or disgusted by you

Being skinnier than your enemies ~ or if you are jealous of someone else imagine we1gh1ng less than them, amazing right?

Losing facial fat

Getting a thigh gap / not having giant upper thighs

Getting bony arms/wrists

Having people worry about you

Getting a boyfriend/girlfriend

Having sharp collarbones that look like they will take someone's eyeball out

Being able to wear EVERYTHING in your closet, all the shorts, jeans, tops you were ever afraid to wear are now baggy on you, you feel amazing

Going to the store (or buying online) and choosing the xs,xxs,xxxs sizes because you can <3

Being able to go anywhere without worrying anymore... do you remember what it felt like to go out and not worry about your weight? You will never worry about looking to "fat" ever again

Being the skinniest person in class

Being skinnier than your fav musicians/kpop idols... if they can do it while PERFORMING certainly you can sk1p meals without the fuss right?

Being able to lift up your shit/wear a crop top and you are so skinny that your ribs slightly poke out and your stomach is completely flat, you look perfect

Not worrying about summer ever again

Never having to randomly "lock in" because you already did the work

Going on vacation and wearing a bikini and not feeling insecure

Now, close the fridge, drop the snack/fork and go take a walk.... your dream body isn't going to come without any work put in, right?

Honestly water fasting is easy all you have to do is trick your mind

Unpopular opinion: being obese is not good healthy or beautiful. It’s crushing your arteries.

- get skinny

- academic weapon