ᵇᵘᵇᵇˡᵉᵍᵘᵐ / ʙɪᴛᴄʜ

(...)

Dohyun had been walking through the halls, taking in the decorations, and actors dressed up with a child-like sense of glee when she had run into him, and his mind went blank. Shit.

“Why are you yelling at me?”

at first it was tolerable to have these ghosts wandering around the corridors, given that they never touch or try to talk to her, but over time it has started to become really annoying. she decides she needs a restroom break from practice, she heads out of the room, only to be greeted by a few ghosts on her way. it would be a lie to say she’s not affected after a while.

not in the sense that they creep her out or make her feel scared, no, but she feels bothered because they are everywhere in the corridors. the first time it happened, harin could still laugh. she finds it funny rather than scary, so she laughs. the second time, not so funny anymore. by now she’s tired of seeing these ghosts around, even if they literally do nothing to her. she swears if she gets out from this restroom and another ghost comes at her, she’s gonna snap for sure. she’s had it enough, so when she finally heads out and sees someone, she wastes no time but to yell ‘just quit it already!’ right to their face. it’s not the smartest move, of course. it’s when she stops that she realizes she actually knows this ghost... fuck. 

so instead of another ghost, harin ends up yelling at dohyun. park dohyun. 

(...)

as if she jinxed it herself, she suddenly comes face to face with harin. eyes travel down to the face of the girl before they roll to the side. “you’re in the way.” she says, softly enough to not be heard by anyone passing by. she might be in a bad mood, yet she doesn’t plan on making a bad name for herself around people of the industry and legacy’s staff.

she’s not happy. not because of the party, it’s too early to judge whether this one is going to be a good one --- she hopes it would, considering that she has gone through hell earlier in the day time. harin at least deserves some good ass halloween party, but she’s not happy. this year she comes as a black swan, a concept she comes up with yejin, who turns into a white swan for this halloween. it’s not the usual ballet dancer costume she’s wearing tonight, but instead she got herself some fancy black dress with feathers and a crown on her head, as she wants to be different in case someone else decides to show up with the same costume. god, she would be so mad if there are other swans than her and yejin at this party tonight. 

(...)

He let out a moody « and what if I dressed like that? it’s creepy and black. True Halloween mood right ? We’re not going to fashion week. »

He immediatly regret his grumpiness. After all everyone was upset by the cream cannon.

upon hearing his words, harin shakes her head in disbelief. “i mean it’s black, but you call this creepy? this?” she points at his costume from head to toe, emphasizing on the mask on his hoodie. “this is not creepy at all,” she comments. “if anything it’s... sad. tragic. embarrassing. i wouldn’t suggest you to show up at the party like this.” this time she takes a few steps back, arms crossing across her chest as she scans his costume again for the god knows how many times that evening. she’s just not happy with how he looks like in this outfit. it doesn’t do peter any justice, even if he doesn’t seem to care much about it. what matters now is that she does care. she wants him to look good, to look creepy, if that’s what he wants. 

(...)

it happens for the third time when she leaves the restroom, hands pressed over her chest as she narrows her eyes at the ‘ghost’ who, again, just passes by her. “so annoying,” she mumbled, clicking her tongue, frustration spreading across her face. charlie quicks turns left and sees someone again and sighs, ’another one, hm?’ she thinks to herself as she continues with her steps before coming to a stop, “are you real? or one of those things?” it’s probably not right to call them ’things’, but her annoyance has past a level she could tolerate. rather than annoyed though, her voice sounded more cautious, hesitant even. like she was scared – which irked her even more.

harin is pretty sure she’s not the type to forget things easily, at least not when it comes to a place she comes to nearly everyday for the past three years. but when she steps into the company building and realizes it looks a little different from what she’s used to, she has to go back outside just to make sure it’s the right building. it does look the same from the outside, so it confuses her as to why the inside has changed so drastically, right now looking like it’s abandoned for a very long time when she has just been here yesterday. she ends up going inside anyways, only to have some ghosts passed by her on the way to the practice room. she’s not easily scared so this is nothing, but it does bother her that the room looks kinda old. 

quite frankly, harin enjoys halloween. she loves horror movies, loves the creepy elements. what she doesn’t expect is for the company to transform the building into what seems like an abandoned warehouse. it would be a lie to say she’s not impressed by their efforts, but right now she can’t afford to think about anything else other than the future dreams project. she needs to set her priorities right, and that’s why amidst all this confusing situation, she still manages to practice and pretends she doesn’t hear the other trainees freaking out over the ghosts in the corridors. that’s another thing that bothers her though. people get scared and they scream as if they are the only ones in the building. sometimes it interrupts her practice. 

(...)

however, it seems that for some people, it’s quite the opposite. he’d just finished cleaning up when he sees harin leaving the bathroom. seeing her expression tells him that she’s likely gone through the same thing as he has and she is not happy. “why are you always mad at me when you see me?” he asks, crossing his arms as he moves to walk beside her. “did i do something to upset you?” he really doesn’t understand why this always seems to happen.

she would be a fool to think jaesun would listen to her this time and just let her be, so when his voice finally reaches her, she lets out a heavy sigh as she stops abruptly in her tracks. well, as expected. he never listens and always seems to have something to say whenever they see each other like this. once she manages to find enough courage (and patience) to turn around and face him, she takes a moment to stare at him before saying, “it’s not my fault that i’m always mad when i see you.” in her defense, it’s all about timing. he just seems to run into her whenever she’s in a bad mood, so that should be his problem. she even warns him not to talk to her. “didn’t anyone ever tell you how annoying you are? like you don’t even have to talk, your existence is already annoying as it is.” she’s pretty sure she told him before.

(...)

“really?” she laughs, nose scrunching, “i like that one.’ she admits, “i think the composition is compelling. the change up for the chorus is nice and i prefer the cadence of it to the chantier dallla dalla. i don’t think my vocals would suit that well.” she’s got a huskier sound than that, something a bit more rounded, a little bit soulful, slightly indie and r&b inspired. “but  i think i can suit latata the best, honestly. maybe because i’ve practiced it so much now it feels like second nature already,” she laughs, threading her hand through her hair and tousling it up in disarray, folding her legs back in pretzel shaped with a sigh, draining the last of the water. “honestly i think i could manage to find a bright side in most concepts.” she laughs, “unless we went like, old school snsd and broke out the prop lollipops. it might be hard to keep a straight face for that.” 

trainees like them should be able to fit into any kind of concept. it’s easier for the company, but maybe it’s not very much convenient for them. that’s what harin thinks, because she’s the type that wants to do what she wants to do. not just something she’s thrown at and be expected for her to adapt to it, fake it until you make it kind of shit. she can try, of course. that’s not even the hard part. she can pretend she doesn’t mind. she can pretend it doesn’t bother her to do something that she has no interest in, but after a couple years she’ll get tired of it. it’s one of the many flaws that she has --- harin can just easily give up on something when she no longer has the passion for it, even if it’s something she used to love doing for a very long time.

although her passion actually lies in doing music, she genuinely loves performing. it would be a shame if she ends up losing interest in it, considering that she doesn’t have anything else she would rather do in case this career path is not working. she could go back to modelling or study business to take over her mother’s company, but she wants none of those. 

“i guess different people have different taste then,” she remarks. it’s not surprising, but she’s expected soho to be on her side. “now that you said it, i think you kinda fit that song more than dalla dalla too." not that it means soho doesn’t fit dalla dalla. she thinks soho can easily do the girl crush concept if she wants to, but to be honest she totally has that bim bam bum aesthetic in her compared to the dalla dalla song. after all it’s better to pick a song that fits their image the most, although she’s aware that they still have to perform both songs and latata for the evaluation. “i know, right? i feel like i enjoy doing latata more because we practiced so much for it... like i just can’t imagine myself performing anything else now,” she tells soho. 

(...)

     “you really think so? i don’t hear that too often.” she giggles. there were not too many chances where yujin could show such a side, but when she does, she tries her best to look as natural as possible. could it be that she’s been doing this for so long that she’s grown accustom to so many things? is this what it feels like to be a senior? she wasn’t too sure, but being a trainee is definitely worth the time and effort, she’s learning just as much. becoming more and more ready to debut, whenever that day comes for her. “oh hush, you’re just trying to make me blush now.

truth to be told, harin didn’t think she would ever get along with anyone when she first came into legacy. finding yujin here almost felt like a miracle, for that she knew she won’t have to go through everything alone if she had yujin by her side. harin was so used to being spoiled and taken care of at home, so things were very different when she had to live in the dorm and share space with the other girls. of course she’s seen it coming, but she never knew how hard it was to live on her own until she began training here, having all privileges ripped off from her because everyone is treated the same here. she can’t do anything as she pleases, as there are rules to follow and expectations to meet when she agrees to become a legacy trainee. 

maybe if she never gave it a try, she would never find out what she really wants to do with her life. it’s true that her mother had everything planned for her, that she wouldn’t have to worry about a thing if she just follows her assigned fate, but harin wants to do something that she wants to do, not because her mother wants her to. for now she decides she wants to become an idol, a successful one, and that’s why she’s still here after all this time. 

that’s why she’s here with yujin, both participating in the future dreams show to prove their determination. she learns it’s nice to have someone she could share her dream with, knowing well that her dear mother would never be happy about her becoming an idol. harin smiles upon hearing yujin’s words, the accent somehow reminding her of their younger days spent together in australia. “i know,” she replies confidently. “this song is literally made for me. i can feel it in my bones.” she lets a chuckle slip out, rosy lips spreading into a gummy smile. call her narcissistic, but she’s very confident in what she does or says. it’s how she was raised, to think highly of herself at all time. some people find it charismatic, others think it’s arrogance. 

(...)

         “let’s take a break.” she dusts the dirt off her pants, looking in the mirror again. “you know that dance? thank you…next.” she sings lightheartedly as she waves her arms in a circle. “she was so cute when she was performing it. if we learn it, doesn’t that count as dance training?” yejin keeps humming the song, incorporating what little bit she knows into whatever she makes up on the spot. it’s almost like freestyling, except much worse.

harin knows they have already gone through the song for god knows how many times already by now, but that doesn’t make her tired. she truly loves latata, and if they have to do it all over again for another week, she won’t even mind. learning the steps is easy, but harin always seems to struggle when it comes to doing the steps with the music. she would miss a beat or dance ahead of one, sometimes doing the step the opposite way instead. 

she’s hard on herself during practices, thinks of it as the only way to keep herself motivated. somehow the show makes all this a little easier, considering that she’s been ranked quite low compared to the other girls right from the start. after all there are more trainees above harin at this moment, and she needs to surpass them in order to win this competition, so there’s no more room for her to play around once she starts practicing. 

but then yejin wants to take a break, and it has taken her a moment to process the words after being so focused on their session. upon hearing her friend’s question, she spreads a smile on her lips before saying, “the one she did on ellen?” sure, she’s seen the performance several times, but she’s never thought of learning the dance. “yeah, i think that could be considered as dance training.” she lets out an amused laugh as she watches yejin. 

(...)

her laptop was placed on the desk that she shared with her roommate and the popcorn was placed on the bedside table. she motioned harin to sit on the bed as she sat on the chair placed beside the desk so she could prepare the movie. “so, what are we feeling?” she asked, already scrolling through netflix.

even if harin has been training for four years at the company now, it’s still hard to get used to the long exhausting days, especially since she decided to participate in the future dreams project. although she no longer has morning practice, it feels no different from her regular schedule, except the fact that she’s being filmed almost all the time she’s at the company. 

it doesn’t bother her of course, but knowing she’s ranked pretty low in the show, she knows she needs even more extra hours of practice. she really wants to win, so there’s no room to play around at this moment, although she does appreciate spending some free time with her friends once she’s done practicing. today she has promised miyeon they would watch movies together at her dorm --- she arrives a little late, but there’s a big smile on her lips as soon as she sees miyeon, returning the hug first and foremost. after all it’s been a while since she last hung out with the other girl like this. “i told you i’ll come, didn’t i?” she asks in a playful tone, letting out a soft chuckle before nodding at the older girl. “ooh, popcorn. now that’s exciting!” 

(...)

“It’s still so cool how we got to be on stage though, right? It was hard to see how everyone else was doing, but I thought you did really great! Everyone did well… I really thought I was gonna fall off the stage at the end, like… there were so many people! Don’t you think?”

people don’t usually approach harin unless it’s needed. she learns that there’s a lot of reasons why people tend to stay away from her. she’s been told many times that she appears to be intimidating to some, perks of having a resting bitch face. she’s never been the one to start conversation --- people sometimes mistake her for being shy or anxious, but truth to be told she just doesn’t want to make an effort. most of the time she’ll let people talk first, although that wouldn’t mean she’s willing to listen. she’s neither a good talker or listener, so it’s easy to see why the other trainees refuse to befriend harin. after all she’s very picky when it comes to people she chooses to hang out with, which makes her seem like a stuck-up rich brat. 

it’s not wrong though. that’s how her mother raised her to be --- it’s a dog-eat-dog world, there is no such thing as real friendship. she sticks by her words until now, albeit realizing that she could actually find real friends here. she’s still a little worried of course. it doesn’t make her stop wondering if they are only befriending her because of something that she has, since she has dealt with that shit a lot previously. it makes her cautious, but she hopes she’s wrong. 

as a senior trainee in legacy, it would be a lie to say she never thought of being a role model for the juniors. she’s aware that she’s not the best in her training group. it’s something she still hasn’t been able to accept until now, to learn that some of the girls in her group is way more talented that she would ever be, although she works just as hard or even harder. but that doesn’t mean the juniors couldn’t like her. she knows she’s pretty, she knows she has good sense in fashion. in terms of appearance alone, harin thinks she’s above everyone else. she can sing, albeit just on the average level, and she can actually dance too. she doesn’t see a reason for the juniors to dislike her, unless they have a bad encounter with her, that’s it. 

𝟒𝟗 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬

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oof she’s pretty good at dancing and her expressions are on point too!!

that’s all she could do? i guess legacy only takes her because she’s pretty lmao

she looks petite, cute but also hot?! her body is goals and her face is just my type TT i hope to see this unnie a lot during the show!

she looks like she’ll smile in your face but talk shit behind your back….