An overarching theme that really stuck out to me this semester through photographer Zanele Muholi, artist Cole Faust, and the documentary State of Pride is the importance of visibility of QUEER JOY!!!
I knew I was queer (bi? pan? I usually stick with queer) from a young age but for a myriad of reasons didn't feel comfortable "coming out" to my friends and family until this past summer, at age 28 years old. When I was younger I let catholic schooling and societal dictations of gender roles paired with my mom's poor bi-phobic sex education explanation of "You can be gay or straight but if you're bi you're just a slut" keep me in the closet. Now, as an adult cis-gender woman, married to a cis-gender man, I'm often quiet about my queerness because by being in a cis-het relationship I sometimes feel like a fraud, a phony, or "fake gay." I cannot tell you how often my mother, (who I'm really painting in a horrible light she's a wonderful and supportive lady...just a white baby boomer from the midwest but we're working with it, lol), has asked "But if you're queer, what is Alex?" Like my sexuality somehow morphs this man into the only member of an alien race capable of loving a fat biracial queer bitch?
But through this class I've been moved by so many mediums to embrace the joy of being myself-- even if that person doesn't fit into the boxes society thinks it should F#ck those boxes. It has taken me every ounce of the last twenty-nine years to embrace and love and nurture myself the way I deserve and I'm happy to shout from the rooftops that QUEER JOY IS RAD <3