I'm still lost.

A few weeks ago, I had the genius thought "hm. Why dont i draw that one frame from lower ones eyes as itrapped and chance lol." Then I asked my beloved friend about who is who, citing chance as being the jollymaxxer and itrapped as the "ew go tf away" guy (im paraphrasing itrapped's reason). With that in mind, I proceed to have the worst tweak out I've ever had with digital art ever for the next 3 days. I legit thought, "ah, 3 hours and I'll be done!" because all my previous works takes about 3-5 hours and don't have a complex background (until now), so I dont know why I thought it'd be the same... Anyways I crashed out about how I had the fucking OVERLAY LAYER ON THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS BLENDING COLORS LIKE FOOK. I was like, "ah gee. Why is everything like a shade lighter lmao?" Becaus i blend everything on one collapsed layer (base color + line art + shading/lighting) but I had the character and background seperated. 5 hours in i noticed the overlay layer was on after taking a break and I wondered, "gee, why is everything not a shade lighter now?" after turning overlay off. Then i put two and two together and crunkled. But honestly, even though i didnt mean to i might legit use this mistake again as a technique since the end results doesnt look bad. Speaking of techniques, I had to pull out my yard stick and use it on my iPad (thank God I didnt draw on phone) to get my line to lines because I hate using ibis pain x angle tools, like it doesnt do the things I want it to 🥲. When I drew my straight lines I was wondering why the lines had like space in between, but its only after completing everything that I remembered I had my stabilizer at 0, which might explain the weird spacing (its small but noticeable when zoomed in).

Around 14 total hours later I was all yippied and showed it to my friends a few days after completion, until... my other close friend asked "why chance neck like that? (As in off center from the body)" To be fair, I took 3 hours sketching on paper and couldn't get the distance between the characters right so I had to start from the arms and work my way out to the rest of the body, which is why the sketch is more wonky then the final result. At first I couldn't see what was wrong because, like, I've been staring at ts for 14 hours and had started hating it 💀. My friend was being nice about it, trying to tell me it looks good and stuff, and its just a silly anatomy issue but NAH. I GOTTA FIX IT.

Couple days later, I sat my ass down, and performed some scary surgery and fixed the neck 👍. I got my friend to look over it again and she was like "yeh looks good, although I think you could shift the neck a little more but you dont have to becaus eits already good as is." And that was good enough for me because at that point, the total hours went to 15 and I was done with ts 😭. Fixing the neck was like 5 min, the rest of the time was spent having too much fun about where to put like 15+ watermarks on the work.

Mime is so goofy but like it's actually taking me out how vro is literally the EMBODIMENT OF LUST 😭😭.

I've been having such a bad addiction to Pressure like I gotta keep playing or else im gonna explode.

I can't stop getting deep in multiple Roblox trenches it's like actually so over for me.

Anyways, one of the trenches I'm starting to get a little too deep into is Pressure. For one doodle I did, I was playing with a friend and suddenly an angler was coming. Somehow, THAT THING GOT ME THROUGH THE WALL. And I was out of line of sight too so like wth 🥲. My friend and I discussed what could've and happened and the most likely explanation was that my hitbox was poking through the wall and the angler got me.

My ass is starting to get into Phighting and it just might be over for me.