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THOUGHTS God is good Be consistent with all the things I need/have to do My body is tired No unnecessary comments Conserve energy Stricter boundaries TO-DO Work Read Yesteryear Do financial reports Pilates (kahit 1 lang this week) Rest and sleep, 4 hrs sleep debt let’s goooo Time with family GRATITUDE Family is healthy Husband and kids Family time Feast Novotel 2 sessions Deep…

What is the good life for me in 5 years? We were asked during one of our LG sessions. After 5 years, I am already 42, Jake’s 44. My kids are 14 and 12. What I have now in my life, I consider a good life. Anything more, it is already a bonus. I have a family I call my own, a loving husband, healthy and happy kids, stable job, a community I belong to, a few true friends, and I get to do the…

I was born on May 12, 1989. May 12, 2012. I was not expecting anything from anyone, but God did not allow me not to be surprised. His wonderful and thoughful children were there for me to be reminded of His great love. Even though it was my first time not to be with my family the day before my birthday, He has always a perfect plan, the Lord gave me another family to be with, my YFC family. He…

Journal 53: My Lazarus

This story of Lazarus has been bugging me since July. I first heard it during Jewels Conference, it was a conference for all the women. The speaker/worship leader was telling the story of Lazarus and compared Lazarus to our dreams, to our desires, to our relationships that was already dead but because of Jesus was resurrected. My Lazarus was my dream to do events. I find joy working on the…

Journal 52: Papalolo and Yanna

Her Papalolo passed away last Friday, October 7. We explained it to them (Yanna and Gab) what happened before they said goodbye. We told them that Papalolo was resting, going to heaven to Papa Jesus and that he was not sick anymore and already happy. She was sad and we told her that it is okay to be sad. During the wake, she was always excited to see her Papalolo, she even cried when there was a…

Crying is one of my way to communicate. I am not the best communicator in the world. I am an introvert by profession. I am used to keeping things to myself. Unless you really know me, then lucky you but sometimes even with my husband, I find it really hard to send my thought across. Last night, I was at my crying point. The point where you needed a good cry because you have been carrying a lot,…

Journal 50: Undomesticated Me

I am a stay at home mom, a working mom, a loving wife, and a very undomesticated woman. It has been 3 weeks since our helpers went AWOL and we just decided to let them go. For the first few weeks, it was a walk in the park for me. Laundry? No problem. Food? Grab delivery. Kids? Easy breezy. Household Chores? I got it. Online School? On time. Work? I can do it. Until I cannot. When I was…

Journal 049: Emotionally Unstable

It’s been a while. Maybe I will delete this post when I feel better. For almost 2 months now, I feel so emotional with even the littlest things I can think of. I cannot explain all these emotions. Sometimes. I just cry when I do not understand what is happening around me. I feel very sensitive, when I feel that someone is trying to attack me unintentionally or do not understand me, it is hard…

Journal 048: Habit Scorecard II

After 2 months, I am making a habit scorecard again to see if I improved or not. I made this last July 12 and this was my score: GOOD:21, BAD:6, NEUTRAL: 11 Wake up at 8AM +Morning Prayer +Readings +Read Proverbs 31+Rosary +Skincare AM +Prep Yanna for school +Make coffee for me and hubby +Work =Blog Journal +Do chores =Lunch =Do Yanna’s homework +Put Yanna to sleep =Work =Take a nap if possible…

Journal 047: September Goals

August has been a blessing and it was a test of character but I am really grateful for these. Consistent Prayer Life. I make it a point to start my day with a prayer, say the Rosary within the day, reflect on daily readings and end my day in a prayer. Journal and always have time for my Grateful list.Continue to advocate for myself.Continue to take good care of my family, loved ones and…

Journal 046: Helicopter Parent

Being a parent to a toddler who will go to school during this pandemic gives me anxiety. Yanna will be starting her online classes next week. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I am doing my best (in my own opinion) what would be the best for her. I am setting up a school corner for her which is not yet finished, I am still waiting for my Shopee orders. But I had the chance to open up my…

Yesterday, I received one of the most shocking news in my life. My initial reaction was anger. I wanted to release my anger in ways I wish I could have but I asked myself, with all the things that I have read and learn throughout my journey to becoming more faithful to the Lord, being vulnerable, and becoming a Proverbs 31 woman, what should I do? I hold back the anger, chose not to leave the…

Journal 44: Power Tools

I am really enjoying reading the 90 day guide to living the Proverbs 31 life. For today, God wants me to learn about being authentic, that I will be the same woman in public and in private. To bring good all the days of my life. The exercise for today is to list all my POWER TOOLS that helps me in times of weakness and these are the things I wrote: Act of Contrition: Ever since I started…

Journal 043: Personal Vision Statement

I am currently reading “Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be” by Donna Partow. It is a 90-day guide to living the Proverbs 31 life. I am on Day 3 today but on Day 1, there was an exercise where in we were asked to write the following and my answer were: 2 of your unique personal qualities: (1) loving (2) attentiveness 1 or 2 ways you enjoy expressing those qualities: (1) through listening (2)…

Journal 042: August Goals

Ending the month of July was not as good as June but I trust in God’s plan. Consistent Prayer Time. Doing my best everyday.Journal and always have time for my Grateful List everyday. Watch Becoming in Netflix.Continue to take care of myself, my family and loved ones.Read Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be. Day 1 of 90Finish The 5 Love Languages of Children by Dr. Gary Chapman. Have not…

Currently: Gloomy weather. Reading// Atomic Habits by James ClearWriting// This entryListening// Say What You Want by Texas coz it’s Sunday Senti.Thinking// To wake up 7AM on weekdaysSmelling// Diffuser- Cedarwood, Lavender and GrapefruitWishing// To be a readerHoping// That I can be who I want to beWearing// Pajamas.Loving// Time spent with familyWanting// Mr. SunNeeding// To prayFeeling//…

Journal 041: Jewels Conference Takeaway

Jewels Conference is a gathering of all women to empower us in our journey as women, in all aspects of our lives and be reminded of our worth. It was my second time attending Jewels Conference online. This year was different because it was on an app called Whova. Before the event, I was already interacting with the other sisters online, it was the perfect app for me, I can just read the topics…