Our Beautiful Journey into Marriage

It's been a really rough week. Verbally put down by Chris Sweetapple. Jodie isn't coming dress shopping on Saturday, she left to go to Newfoundland. Jenny was only gonna visit for one night. I haven't talked to Chris in days. .. I bought a book called 'Motherless Daughters' and im only 92 pages in but it makes me realize how much she should mean to me and still affect me if I want it to! No one around me understands that and I'm losing my mind trying to act like everything is perfect. I want to be weak and cry and get it out because I feel like that would make me feel so much better. But to who? I don't think I've felt this alone in 7 years.

Bridal Show today with my sissy!! So much free stuff!

Booking and putting a deposit on Marc Polidoro! Soooo excited. Another thing to check off the "to do" list! Next this month will be: - guest list and Save the Dates - bridal dresses Hopefully the stress starts so ease off. 360 days :)

I found this dress on David's Bridal website, fell in love with it the minute Jessica zipped it up, and bought it the second time I put it on.

Some other dresses I tried on on both days at David's.

Sissys trying on long dresses

Love the coral reef colour :) short dresses look much less formal and cute.

My dress before I had an A Line slip on and after :) i love puffy!!

What. A. Month! Engaged on the 3rd, tried on dresses on the 25th and bought the very first dress I tried on, on the 30th! It's extremely overwhelming but I love this. I can't believe how brave I have become doing this without mommy but I guess when you have no other choice, you do what you can to make the happy times in your life bearable! I'm so grateful to have my family, even when we fight, I know at the end of the day my dad and Krystal are there 100%. So, my dress is bought. The date is set. We have exactly one year until we will be saying "i do!"