kairos

"I hope I can be the autumn leaf,

who looked at the sky and lived.

And when it's time to leave,

gracefully it knew life was a gift."

- Dodinsky

It hurts when you’ve got no one to tell you are sad

Someone who feels it without you talking

It hurts because I had him with me once but I lost him

I can’t deny it anymore but I do miss him too much that it hurts

He says it’s not my fault he says it’s his

But it doesn’t matter whose fault it’s

I just miss him

Each passing day I wake up saying it’s a new day you can do it this time

And every day I fail miserably

I remember him the moment I open my eyes

The pain heightens with every inhale and exhale

Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance

….. What they don’t tell you is that you’ll cycle through them all every day.

brain: hoe don't do it

me: *clicks chapter one*