Me and My madness

I want it back

It's so incredibly unfair why do I have to loose so much to get happier ?

Does that make sense?

I miss the idea of parents

Idk I just

It's not even like they where good parents I mean he leaves for years and then drops dead and she abuses me and it's like god

Ohhhh I miss having parents ohhh nooo

What ever. Counts as a crisis like all these services keep saying ouyggga call or text if in crisis and it's like mf I'm not in crisis I'm doing things I'm just not all the way here rn? Will you get mad at me if I'm not in crisis like???

I blink and then " hurt yourself so they don't have to hurt you, it's a service " comes into my head and it's just.. Hello?? Were things not going well what even happened I blinked and I'm back here again

Oh dear old me I miss who I used to think you were

How pitiful right? She just stopped one day and I'd go and lay next to her in hopes she'd do it again but nope she just got really annoyed and would tell me to fuck off, I don't get what I did wrong, was I not appealing anymore? I could just.. ask him if he would give me head scratches if we could have a movie night and if I could lay on his lap but it wouldn't be the same, its not the same if you have to ask for it ,it would feel forced

Ouyggggagggg I miss when she used to let me lay on her lap and she'd give me head scratches ughh I miss when she was on a call and she'd fix my hair out of my face

Nothings horrible people love you, you daft cunt

" so how's uni work going " Im gonna rip myself to shreds " oh yeah it's going great " everything is horrible my guy

Listen I am forever glad I'm like eughh loved now or whatever but I do miss the comfort of knowing I could walk around with shredded arms and no one would say anything that shit was awful and incredible at the same time AGHSGSHGS

Euthhhhhh