The Suicide Chronicles

I’m working on getting a Twitter set up.. possibly a Dreamwidth idk

Ok, so I’m starting to see some progress with NBE. I’ve been slacking in my massages and haven’t pumped in weeks though so it’s slower than it probably could be. I’m gonna post pics soon as I can sneak away from my cubicle long enough to snap some. I haven’t taken any measurements (because I keep misplacing my measuring tape) but my bras are starting to fit tighter.

I’m officially up 12 pounds since I full on started actively trying to gain weight. I’d like to gain another 10 pounds, 5 pounds at least.

Anyway, week one was officially yesterday. Haven’t noticed any increase in size (wasn’t really expecting to) but I have noticed my breasts feel a bit fuller and are kinda achy and itchy, which is apparently a sign of growth (if I recall my puberty days, anyway). Not sure if that’s the PM or if it’s just the flaxseed. I dunno

Because, frankly, I’m suicidal.

Yes, I’m seeing a psychiatrist, yes I’m on meds, yada yada. Here’s the deal

I reached a point late last year where I just realized... I’m not happy, and things are never really going to get better. Not permanently. My life was shit and has kinda always been shit. And frankly, I was just over it.

But, long story short: I’m obsessive about keeping promises. And I promised a friend I’d go to a festival with her in September. So I’m stuck here until then. So I said I’d give it my all, and try and find the will to live again.

And so a part of that is: I want my fucking tits back.

I used to have (relative to my frame anyway) huge tits. I pretty much viewed them as a nuisance. I lost a little bit of weight in college so they shrunk, but it was a good shrinkage. A “still looks good but my back hurts less” shrinkage.

Then, well mental illness is a bitch, and I inadvertently lost over 15 pounds (to put it in perspective, at my heaviest I’m 115). Which, caused my tits and ass to shrink.

Which, does not make me a happy camper.

I figure if I’m going to be here, I should at least like looking at myself. So, I’m trying to gain the weight back, and in the process get my tits and ass back. Hence, this NBE blog.

Fair warning, while this will pretty much be about breast enlargement/enhancement (and my obsession with nipples) there’ll be times I post some pretty dark shit.

I’m not here to hook up or for people’s entertainment. I don’t want to trade pics, and I don’t want to see your dick.

Please stop sending me fuckboy messages.

Title pretty much says it all. Just looking for people to chat with, share progress with, various methods, or just shoot the shit. Really trying to stay motivated and hoping to surround myself with like minded people.